Nihilism is best done by professionals. — Iggy Pop
Disclaimer: The following material was written for therapists to identify and manage clients with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) while illustrating some consequences that could occur during clinical practice. Clinical terminology will be interspersed with colloquial storytelling for accessibility. Attempting to conduct therapy with an undiagnosed or misdiagnosed mental health patient suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder can be like walking into the Australian Outback without a compass—clinical confusion, navigational errors, and emotional dehydration are virtually guaranteed. In essence, you won’t just be lost, you’re likely to become a part of the BPD landscape. Furthermore, the following hypothetical situation in no way suggests that all patients suffering from BPD are similar regarding presentation, cognition, or behavioral responses. Therapists, like others, should avoid endorsing the No True Borderline fallacy. This essay is not intended as a support resource or treatment recommendation for those suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder; it represents an experiential and educational guide to inform and protect therapists from becoming professionally upended. Despite some of the behavioral depictions, occasional humor, and provocative vernacular, there is no motivation by the author to show prejudice or discriminate against this controversial, and often misunderstood, mental health population. Contempt is reserved for the disorder (the legacy of trauma) but not for the person. However, without proper diagnosis and treatment, the person and their pathology are indelibly intertwined. Similarly, compassion is reserved for the person’s suffering, but not for their destructive behavior. Having what is considered an externalizing disorder, people with BPD search for external sources of stimulation, validation, and emotional regulation. They also search for external sources of blame to avoid feelings of shame. Loved ones often describe relationships with Borderlines as “hostage situations,” but those who suffer from BPD are also held hostage by their own unresolved internal conflicts, insecurity, fear, impulses, and highly unstable emotions. Borderline Personality Disorder is a serious mental illness that negatively affects the person suffering from it, in most cases, more than it affects those who interact with them (10% percent of Borderlines commit suicide). Borderline behavior is simply a maladaptive means of survival, but therapists must learn how to recognize and manage the onslaught of such behaviors in a clinical setting. Therapists are professionally identified as caregivers, and many clients suffering from BPD obtain their sense of identity by being taken care of. This perilous juxtaposition creates the potential for a clinician’s version of Murphy’s Law. Therapists should have compassion for those who suffer from the disorder and for those who suffer by association. Borderline Personality Disorder creates a momentous ripple effect that adversely permeates through family, personal, professional, and social realms. *The term Borderline (BPD) will be used for purposes of descriptive brevity, but this is not meant to imply that a human being is reducible to their disorder.
Chaos is the score upon which reality is written. — Henry Miller
Although therapists may have the necessary academic background to assess Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) from a vignette, list of traits, anecdote, or comprehensive case study, they may not have worked with enough varieties of Borderline experience in a clinical setting to identify the full range of behavioral manifestations. For example, therapists can learn to recognize common strains of the BPD “psychovirus,” but other strains may go completely unnoticed (i.e., not recognizing a melody because it’s being played backwards). The DSM-IV and DSM-5, with their checklists of infamous Borderline traits and diagnostic features, cannot begin to capture the experiential dynamics of being in a more direct relationship with a Borderline individual (the World Health Organization’s ICD-10 defines BPD as Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder). The complexity of this disorder sometimes goes undetected by even the most seasoned clinicians until a specific behavioral pattern over time suggests a definitive pathology. The danger of normalization and misdiagnosis is common with Borderlines because of the protean nature of this biosocial disorder and its wide array of individualized features. According to the article Subtypes of borderline personality disorder patients; a cluster-analytic approach from the journal Borderline Personality Disorder and Emotion Dysregulation, 2017: “The BPD population is notably heterogeneous from a descriptive and theoretical perspective. Two hundred fifty-six possible combinations of criteria may yield the same diagnosis. Hence, two patients with a diagnosis of BPD may have only one diagnostic criterion in common.” Correspondingly, a dimensional-based severity scale for BPD should include categories for mildly disturbed, moderately disturbed, and severely disturbed—in addition to Theodore Millon’s 4 BPD subtypes: Discouraged, Impulsive, Petulant, and Self-Destructive. Regarding functionality, some Borderlines are highly self-sufficient, whereas others can be completely dependent, yet they’re all emotionally dependent. BPD is considered to be the great masquerader of mental health disorders. As a characterological disorder, the symptoms of BPD are often camouflaged by the client’s mysterious presentation and myriad interpersonal conundrums, thereby making the prospects of a conclusive diagnosis even more troublesome. There’s also considerable overlap among all Cluster B disorders (narcissistic, borderline, histrionic, and antisocial). Approximately 90% of persons with BPD have co-occurring dependent, obsessive compulsive, or antisocial personality disorders. Overall, Borderline Personality Disorder should be considered on a broad psychiatric spectrum rather than relying on common caricatures, clinical stereotypes, or hyperbolized Hollywood depictions. BPD represents approximately 2% of the general population with roughly 75% of cases being diagnosed among females. A large percentage of BPDs report a history of abuse in childhood (physical, emotional, and sexual), but yet 20% claim to have no memory of such encounters (possibly repressed, or not recognizing neglect as a form of abuse). But even with all of these stipulations and appraisals taken into consideration, to creatively paraphrase Richard Feynman: If you think you understand Borderline Personality Disorder, you don’t understand Borderline Personality Disorder (just ask a Borderline). It’s Heisenberg’s uncertainty principle; it’s Schrodinger’s cat; it’s believing in two diametrically opposed ideas at the same time. As a system of trauma incognito, BPD passes the Turing test and takes therapists through a dense forest until they unwittingly arrive in the uncanny valley. Considering the vast catalog of mental illnesses, Borderline Personality Disorder stands out as an unpredictable ontological contradiction that never fails to generate confusion among family members, loved ones, acquaintances, and caregivers. Most tragically, it deeply confuses the person who is suffering from it.
In terms of an accessible two-tier classification system, BPD “first impressions” could be recognized as either Authoritarian or Vulnerable.
Authoritarian BPD Interpersonal disposition: Compulsively self-sufficient, domineering, mesmerizing, intrusive, anxious, dysphoric, demanding, passionate, presumptive, judgmental, perfectionistic, fearful, competitive, impatient, pessimistic, combative, easily angered, petulant, stubborn, critical, paranoid, and envious. Attachment style: Fearful/Disorganized. Intimacy style: Erotophobic. Rationale: “I have needs for stability, predictability, and approval that were not met during childhood; therefore, I must be in charge to survive.” Valence: Aggressive, flamboyant, anxious, intense, and irritable. Parenting style: Over-involved. Objective: Control of self-image, others, and their environment (overtly expressed).
Vulnerable BPD Interpersonal disposition: Dependent, charming, captivating, coercive, desperate, mercurial, seductive, playful, hapless, passionate, anxious, perfectionistic, dysphoric, duplicitous, suspicious, solipsistic, fearful, affectionate, labile, docile, hypersensitive, desultory, fantasy-prone, childlike, vindictive, and jealous. Attachment style: Anxious/Preoccupied. Intimacy style: Erotophilic. Rationale: “I have needs for safety, validation, love, and nurturing that were not met during childhood; therefore, I must be taken care of to survive.” Valence: Coy, mischievous, needy, desperate, and enigmatic. Parenting style: Under-involved. Objective: Control of self-image, others, and their environment (covertly expressed).
It should be understood that these rudimentary classifications are not mutually exclusive. For example, a Vulnerable BPD could easily switch into an authoritarian mode of expression, given the volatility of their internal barometer during stressful circumstances. However, general appearances indicate a default tendency towards either one disposition or the other, and both classifications maintain fantasies of omnipotence to offset deep feelings of insecurity. For purposes of this essay, the author will focus on clinical encounters with the Vulnerable BPD on the more severe side of the spectrum. A more descriptive archetypal rubric is supplied by Christine Ann Lawson in her popular book Understanding the Borderline Mother.
In addition to the DSM’s notorious 9-point diagnostic criteria, here’s a 10-point list of the more “unspoken” aspects of Borderline Personality Disorder:
- Perfectionism. Excessive attention to details with hypervigilance.
- A pervasive need for control in multiple contexts. Hyper-competitive, uncompromising, jealous, anxious, defensive, irritable, dysphoric, bitter, and mistrusting of others (assuming malicious intent where none exists).
- Relying on a victim identity (learned helplessness) for obtaining sympathy, affection, and resources.
- Situational transmogrification. Shape-shifting according to interpersonal circumstances. Presenting and behaving differently around different people (i.e., social image versus private persona).
- Automatically viewing others in terms of object relations and unconsciously reenacting childhood trauma during every intimate encounter. Confusing internal objects with external objects (i.e., feelings become facts). Resorting to aversion and aggression during periods of frustration.
- Projective identification. Coercing intimate others to “become” an avowed or disavowed representational object without the other person realizing that it’s happening (i.e., emotionally transforming others to act as a container for fear and frustration; a source of stability; a “dumping ground” for destructive impulses, behaviors, and intolerable feelings; or an object of blame).
- Emotional reasoning, all-or-nothing thinking, and having personal definitions for universal language (sometimes harboring ideas of reference and magical thinking). Overreacting to any sudden change in plans and low in agreeableness.
- Seeking intimacy as a form of compensatory nurturing that provides safety, comfort, soothing, reassurance, stability, and validation. Using transitional objects (material items) as surrogates for absent others.
- Subconsciously evaluating others for their potential as need-gratifying objects (i.e., “good” enablers or “bad” obstacles). Socially anxious, suspicious, tense, and pathologically self-absorbed as a relational style.
- Compromised listening, comprehension, and communication skills due to overwhelming emotional preoccupations. Borderlines can act like they understand the viewpoints of others, but they often don’t due to deficits in cognitive processing, alterity, and mentalization. Paying attention to the content of conversations becomes difficult if the subject matter deviates from their immediate interests or needs. The BPD’s attention to detail is greater than their attentiveness.
A useful image for Borderline Personality Disorder interpretation is to picture a 3-layer cake. On the surface of the cake is the BPD’s survival-based persona, a “false self” (coping self) that allows them to function in the world and feel accepted while avoiding the agony of criticism or rejection. In essence, the false self is an idealized form of identity that the Borderline wants to present to others as their authentic self. The middle section of the cake represents a large arsenal of primitive defense mechanisms and behaviors that generate the bulk of Borderline traits. The bottom layer of the cake symbolizes the BPD’s traumatized and psychologically arrested inner child who is buried underneath a complicated mix of ingredients that include denial, fear, and dissociation. In therapy, clinicians must become the equivalent of psychoanalytical archaeologists willing to get messy in a mixing bowl of toxic cake batter to unearth the Borderline’s traumatized self. Staying on the surface of the cake is what the BPD wants everyone to do, and they will fight like hell to maintain their protective exterior. But focusing on the frosting and its permutations only enables this evasive disorder to flourish with impunity. Basically, the “bright side” is the BPD’s manifest image, and the “dark side” is their pathological behavior. Side A is a hit song, but side B should have never made it into the studio. As a result of such confusion, therapists and other providers often take an à la carte approach to symptom evaluation and treatment before getting to the center of the Borderline tootsie pop. But wait, there’s more! The therapist may assume that he or she is interacting with the BPD’s “true self,” but this is an illusion. In reality, the therapist is interacting with the BPD’s mask of normality (detached protector). However, the therapist will eventually be judged according to the Borderline’s impossible-to-please persona (angry-impulsive child). In fact, the BPD’s core self is conflicted because they never developed trust, healthy independence, or self-acceptance. In severe cases, Borderline Personality Disorder is considered a subtype of Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder) with multiple self-states in perpetual conflict with one another. To make matters worse, the Borderline will believe that the therapist is either an indifferent professional or an unencumbered caregiver who has the power to magically rescue, nurture, and restore their damaged inner child. However, all therapists endorse a “situational self” by assuming the role of a caregiver as an occupational identity. In reality, the therapist is a human being with faults, problems, vulnerabilities, stressors, and limitations just like everyone else. Last but not least, most interactions in therapy rely on neurotypical standards of reasoning and interrelating, but Borderlines have no reliable baseline for congruent communication because of their fractured identity, cognitive deficits, emotional instability, severe separation anxiety, hypersensitivity, paranoia, impulsivity, aggression, dissociative amnesia, immaturity, and lack of insight. BPDs are extremely sensitive to how others are affecting their emotions, but they have no idea how they’re affecting the emotions of others. Introspection is replaced by deflection. What could possibly go wrong?
It is certainly abnormal to crave so much to be loved and understood. — Anaïs Nin
A conceptual view of BPD is noted by Robert B. Shulman: “The characteristics of the borderline personality include a marked and persistent identity disturbance, chronic feelings of emptiness and boredom, and intense unstable personal relationships. The borderline tends to have difficulty tolerating being alone, and will fear abandonment. They are highly impulsive, and may engage in self-mutilating behavior, have recurring suicidal threats, and manipulate others to meet their immediate needs. The borderline also tends toward having an intense affect; unstable mood; displays of inappropriate anger; perceptual distortions; and under great stress may depersonalize. They see the self as justified; since they feel intolerably bad, they are entitled to go by impulse instead of common sense, and feel entitled to soothe themselves. Their fictitious goal is to do whatever they want as they cannot be happy by how others do it. Their methods are protean, and include splitting, primitive idealization, projective identification, denial, and devaluation. The borderline personality is not a cooperator. Their impairments include affective instability, anxiety and panic, and engaging in self-harmful behaviors. These impairments may cause significant interference in social or occupational functioning. Because the borderline uses others to meet their needs, they can often be the ‘problematic patient’ that medical offices dread.”
Another way to think about Borderline Personality Disorder is as a unique arrangement of C-PTSD (Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) that causes the sufferer to believe that some combination of affection, love, validation, control, and retributive justice is the cure. However, this view is limited because it does not take into account genetics, identity disturbance, psychotic transference, autophobia, and abandonment rage that creates an impaired character structure akin to a developmental syndrome with alloplastic defenses. What emerges is a pathological, post-traumatic split-self, otherwise known as structural dissociation—multiple self-states that represent a highly unstable entity of its own, like uranium. The Borderline’s attachment issues are pervasive and owe as much to insufficient bonding during childhood as they do to trauma-induced hypervigilance. Perhaps most ironically, many individuals who become involved in a BPD relationship cycle are later diagnosed with some form of PTSD themselves due to being recipients of the Borderline’s self-justified reactivity (aka narcissistic/borderline abuse). Left to their own devices, Borderlines will not break the cycle of abuse, they will perpetuate it towards themselves and others.
Come on, babe on the round about; ride on the merry-go-round. — Robert Plant
The ways that Borderline Personality Disorder can present itself are sundry, but traits reliably surface whenever sufficient stressors are involved in the person’s life. The problem is that significant levels of stress may not emerge during casual therapy sessions as they would in a family context, romantic relationship, or adverse situation. In many cases, the BPD’s affable demeanor, charm, and energetic magnetism—as presented in a structured setting—can create the illusion of normalcy for extended periods of time before things begin to unravel. But, to be sure, this commonly misunderstood disorder is a far cry from the “worried well” going through a seasonal spell. BPD is a form of psychological pain that cannot be attenuated by methods of normal communication or reasoning. Individuals with personality disorders do not realize that their perceptions, emotions, and behaviors diverge considerably from quotidian human interactions. To be inappropriately blunt, Borderline “flare-ups” behave a bit like the herpes virus. There may be no visible outbreak of symptoms until the person with BPD encounters enough stress to end the remission period. In most cases, the crux of this disorder is environmentally triggered by interpersonal factors and exacerbated because the host has a skewed perceptual lens. This is why those suffering from BPD can “hide” their internal suffering when social situations are at a minimum threat level. However, it’s the stress of not getting their way that really brings out the creature features of this tumultuous disorder. A Borderline’s inability to manage stress results in an amusement park ride of inappropriate anger, circular arguments, and rotating pandemonium. For many BPDs, life is just too difficult, or isn’t worth living. *It’s important to know that not all Borderlines engage in self-mutilation or suicide attempts, but they can be self-destructive in other ways that are far less obvious (i.e., negative internal dialogue, substance abuse, eating disorders, and other self-sabotaging behaviors). Furthermore, self-injury and suicidality is more about taking control than letting go of a shitty situation. A BPD’s risky behavior is enacted for purposes of self-soothing, but it’s sometimes interpreted by others as recreational, or even adventurous. Nonetheless, since all humans have their “vices” when faced with adversity, the Borderline’s excuses for their behavior are too often excused. As clinical misinterpretation progresses, the caregiver may end up pouring the equivalent of codependent jet fuel on the BPD’s emotional reasoning by gradually supporting their distorted views of reality, or by feeling compelled to gratify assorted requests and demands for special favors. Borderlines could be thought of as emotionally unstable individuals with maladaptive software programs—akin to a faulty GPS—when it comes to navigating interpersonal dynamics. As BPDs were often betrayed by their original caregivers, they anticipate betrayal from anyone who is supposed to care. Unfortunately, the Borderline condition is not amenable to standard forms of patient engagement. In fact, some forms of therapy can actually make BPD patients worse by trying to accelerate self-sufficiency. As a result, BPDs must be willing to submit to specialized treatment programs (i.e., DBT, MBT, IFS, TFP, DDP, and schema therapy) that sometimes require years of attendance before adequate insight is developed or meaningful change occurs. Longitudinal studies of patients with borderline personality disorder indicate that even though these patients may gradually attain functional roles 10–15 years after admission to psychiatric facilities, still only about one-half will have stable, full-time employment or stable marriages. It could also be argued that this population may be better managed by clinicians who have additional training in child psychology. Borderlines don’t know how to interact in relationships, and a relationship with their therapist is just another type of relationship.
Things are not always what they seem. — Phaedrus
The challenge for clinicians is when an undiagnosed or misdiagnosed Borderline presents in multiple sessions without conspicuous traits or clear evidence of Cluster B psychopathology (misdiagnosis is a set up for iatrogenic harm). Likewise, the Borderline’s clinical record is sometimes contradictory or misleading. Furthermore, the elusiveness of this disorder will often escape the radar of previous clinicians because of the client’s ability to superficially present themselves as well-mannered and ostensibly reasonable during brief interactions. BPDs can also appear cognitively copacetic and highly functional (apparent competence) when engaged with specific activities that allow for structure, routine, affirmation, control, and unambiguous results. *Borderlines who are taciturn can be exceptionally difficult to assess because they tend to remain placid until provoked. In other cases, pressured speech is a warning sign that may indicate ongoing hyperarousal. If internal dysregulation (ego-dystonia) is admitted by the client, it’s often misdiagnosed as Bipolar Disorder, atypical depression, or minimized as situational anxiety. Despite a plethora of comorbid considerations, a contradictory or confusing diagnostic history might well suggest that the client is suffering from pervasive patterns of psychological disturbance that transcend Axis I considerations. However, due to time constraints and other factors involved with high-maintenance clinical work, reliance on the assessments of previous caretakers often remains unquestioned. Likewise, it’s sometimes assumed that the client has been an innocent bystander of chaotic family circumstances—surrounded by other personality disordered individuals—rather than being a card-carrying member themselves. In other words, objectivity can be lost if a confirmation bias exists in thinking that the client is an unfortunate victim of bad luck instead of being a potential culprit (this bias does not dispute victimization from abuse in childhood). Whenever such misguided conclusions become diagnostically solidified, the lost-in-translation therapist becomes a detective chasing down the wrong suspects. The clinician might be in the right neighborhood, but they’re focusing on the wrong address. In these circumstances, understanding the multi-generational effects of trauma and the hereditary pervasiveness of Borderline Personality Disorder in families is of key importance (early diagnosis of BPD is crucial for a favorable treatment prognosis). Because of the public and mental health stigma surrounding Borderline Personality Disorder, medication management is often chosen as the sine qua non for treating symptoms rather than subjecting the client to a series of more intensive evaluations. However, psychotropic medication is only supplemental and not effective for addressing the nucleus of this multi-layered disorder.
It’s the Hard Knock Life for us. — Annie
Borderlines are known for being resource and sympathy acquisition specialists—chameleons of expediency and masters of mimicry with lifestyles that are frequently in dramatic fluctuation. Their lives are in flux because their moods and emotions are in flux. Their stories can be captivating, and their charismatic powers of persuasion are often unrivaled. The BPD’s voyage of hardship (unrelenting crises) and methods of retelling are irresistible bait for any caretaker who cares too much. In fact, Borderlines are some of the most emotionally convincing interlocutors on the planet. From a BPD’s point of view, they’re soldiers of misfortune struggling for survival in a hostile world filled with untrustworthy people (survival usurps self-awareness). Assessments taken at face value may have therapists believing the client’s victim identity, which can provoke a strong rescue response, thereby enabling an unwarranted and unsustainable advocacy position as the therapeutic alliance develops. After all, it’s considered rude for therapists to question the veracity of a self-proclaimed victim in the safe space of a treatment setting. But keep in mind, the client’s list of abusers often includes multiple offenders, in multiple contexts, to be blamed over an extended period of time. For example, BPDs can go from one personal or professional relationship to another while complaining about how they were grievously mistreated during their last encounter (aka “support surfers” and professional victims). BPDs will pull at your heartstrings, but there are definitely some strings attached. In addition, the Borderline’s penchant for gossip is highly effective when collecting negative advocates (e.g., concerned others, enablers, and “flying monkeys”). Welcome to the triangulation trap—endorsing the innocence project with someone who may not be so innocent. When this happens, therapists are caught in the crossfire of a divide-and-conquer melodrama. However, a detailed history of the client’s former relationships will undoubtedly reveal significant contradictions while demonstrating evidence for repetition compulsion. Furthermore, these hard luck stories are frequently incoherent and will shift over time. Healthy skepticism is advised. Borderlines are notoriously involved with contentious divorces, custody battles, or complicated legal issues with former partners, professionals, and family members. Their history of interpersonal conflict is usually quite extensive before they step foot in a therapist’s office; however, these battles will often be framed as being unfair, cruel, and imposed upon the Borderline. If there’s a dispute, BPDs will declare themselves as virtuous while creating an exaggerated narrative regarding their “adversaries.” In many situations, Borderlines will provoke confrontations to reassert victimization, thereby eliciting caretaking responses from others.*It’s difficult to think of someone as potentially dangerous when they’re constantly claiming to be in danger, but this is a common form of misdirection with high-conflict people.
Having burned so many bridges, Borderlines are always looking for a new set of suspension cables. The BPD’s ongoing search for someone who “really cares” becomes a perpetual motion machine of dependency and disappointment. Upon closer examination, Borderlines inadvertently exploit others while maintaining a repeated position of victimhood—perpetuating a cycle of victim and rescuer. Consequently, this position abdicates personal responsibility while justifying the Borderline’s impulsive behavior, self-aggrandizement, rage, and mistrust of others. In other words, Borderlines are playing a game of emotional tennis without a net. BPDs are crucibles of disturbance who are exceedingly proficient at persuading their sympathizers that everyone else is disturbed. But in the Cluster B interrogation room, accusations are often confessions in disguise. Projection results in confusion that requires labor-intensive analysis and retrospective dismantling. Borderline paranoia is also bewildering and contagious if not understood for what it is. Paranoia is a projection of the BPD’s aggression and perceptual distortions, and it works to reinforce victimhood. A Borderline is generally imagining the worst about people and situations, and their imagination is unimaginably negativistic. Some BPDs consistently lie or fabricate events based on a combination of cognitive distortions, emotional convictions, or lapses in autobiographical memory. It’s also important to avoid misinterpreting Borderline defiance as a form of independence; it’s an expression of fear and frustration. Having a “cheeky attitude,” rebellious temper, or a flair for sarcasm is a defensive cover-up for existential insecurity. To be sure, giving a Borderline the benefit of doubt will not benefit anyone, including themselves. Other diagnostic misinterpretations may include believing the BPD to be a scapegoat (identified patient) of other “crazy makers,” rather than investigating the client’s contributions to their own psychosocial predicaments. To make matters more convoluted, Borderlines often expect professional relationships to be indistinguishable from personal relationships. Therapeutic relationships, in particular, are anticipated to become more intimate and time consuming because BPDs want to be convinced that their therapist’s empathy is unconditional. However, Borderlines will often interpret challenging clinical interactions to be a simulacrum of parental judgment by an authority figure with the potential for criticism and shame—even the therapist’s tone of voice can set off an adverse reaction in these uniquely hypersensitive patients. Subsequently, BPDs will work hard to undermine the power differential by controlling the therapeutic process to avoid anxiety in the face of uncertainty. The process of change equals an all-too-familiar source of stress and unpredictability that subconsciously reminds them of their childhood. Borderlines prefer power over uncertainty rather than empowerment. Furthermore, social ineptness can be seen whenever reality interferes with the BPD’s need for validation—resulting in boredom and impulsive attempts to regain recognition—or whenever serious discussions require reciprocal engagement. It’s more important for the Borderline to be the center of conversations rather than centering in on the substance of conversations. Therapeutic relationships are meant to be collaborations, but building a therapeutic relationship with a BPD has a much greater likelihood of becoming contentious or codependent because of their distorted perception of trust. Trust, from their perspective, is based on the acceptance and availability of the therapist to meet the needs of the Borderline. A good diagnostic benchmark is to pay attention to the client’s style of interaction. Excessive hostility or excessive congeniality are key indicators for ruling out Cluster B pathology. Borderline patients employ polarized attributions towards others (i.e., good object/bad object), and their affective presentations and internal beliefs about themselves are equally divided. Because BPDs cannot accurately identify the source of their suffering, which makes them feel alone, they need others to identify with their pain.
“Borderline patients seem to have the peculiar ability to inflict a specific form of ‘sweet suffering’ on their therapists. They themselves have suffered throughout their lives, and it is important to them to have their therapists suffer for them. They seem to demand that the therapist abandon the professional therapeutic role so that whoever attempts to treat them must share in their misery,” states Dr. Glen Gabbard.
Love is a battlefield. — Pat Benatar
The Borderline’s history of romantic relationships is characteristically unstable and stormy. Likewise, there’s often evidence of intermittent reinforcement relationships that are intense, turbulent, and ephemeral. BPDs are looking for someone to love and someone to blame to compensate for adverse childhood experiences with primary caregivers. As a result, BPD relationships are transactional and symbolic. Borderlines want the appearance of an adult relationship with the fulfillment of a parental relationship. They’re searching for an all-loving, all-caring, and all-giving surrogate parent. Consequently, the ambivalence they felt towards their parents will be projected onto their partner. This “hot and cold” relationship style is based on an extreme version of the approach-avoidance conflict (otherwise known as “I hate you, don’t leave me”). Borderline’s engage in paradoxical thinking that alternates within minutes, hours, or days. Confusing and contradictory in its push-and-pull nature, this self-defeating dynamic can bring fast connection, enthusiasm, and intensity to relationships, but it also creates a breeding ground for disappointment and hostility. It draws people in, but it eventually pushes people away. For Borderlines, their search for an idyllic version of love is a defense against feelings of fear, emptiness, contempt, and anger. Love becomes a clinging form of desperation beset by jealously. Frank Yeomans, a New York City psychiatrist, describes those with Borderline Personality Disorder as failed romantics. “They seek an ideal of perfect love and pursue it zealously. But as soon as the people they’re besotted with are a few minutes late, or can’t text during a busy work day, BPD sufferers go into a tailspin.” A friend or lover is either “just perfect or all hell breaks loose,” he says. “The borderline mind has not yet been able to integrate positive loving feelings with negative ones, such as frustration and anger. Since every relationship includes a whole range of emotions, you’ve got to deal with all of it to have the relationship work out.” BPDs exhibit a preoccupation with nurturing and reparenting—under the guise of an adult romantic relationship—as the solution to their problems. However, long-term pair bonding is extremely difficult with BPDs because of their predisposition towards jealousy, irrationality, fear, self-sabotage, age regression, paranoia, and abandonment rage. More specifically, an inability to be emotionally subdued for any substantial period of time (object inconstancy) is a chronic feature in the BPD’s universe of fluctuating feelings.
According to psychotherapist Ross Rosenberg, “Their [Borderlines] romantic relationships begin quickly, intensely, and with a great deal of excitement, euphoria, and sexual chemistry. Their volatile emotions move in one of two directions: love and adoration or hate and destruction. Because this person has had little-to-no experience with healthy relationships, the euphoric ‘perfect love’ feelings that occur in the beginning of the relationship are neither realistic nor lasting. The early euphoric love experience is transient as their psychological fragility leads them to an eventual emotional crash and burn. This black-and-white approach to their romances creates a teeter-totter effect of extreme behavior; they either shower their partner with love and kindness, or rage at them with disgust and violence. Their love/hate processing of relationships places an impossible burden on the partner. Often individuals diagnosed with BPD are preoccupied with real or imagined abandonment, which they frantically try to avoid. The perception of impending separation or rejection can lead to profound changes in the way they think about themselves and others, as well as in their emotional stability and behavior. Whether real or imagined, any reminder causes them to strike back at their romantic partner with rage and aggressive hostility. A mistaken comment, a benign disagreement, or an expression perceived as disappointing can quickly transform their loving feelings toward their ‘soulmate’ into a raging retribution against an enemy.” Borderlines are tortured souls who often torture others by association.
Perhaps most unusual is the fact that a Borderline’s preoccupation with friendship, affection, love, and romance (features of bonding that everyone desires) are also characteristics of this disorder—amorous coping mechanisms (limerence) to attenuate anxiety, loneliness, emptiness, and the fear of abandonment. Many people who have been neglected do not know how to feel connected in a healthy way; as a result, the “love” they seek is obsessive love. For Borderlines, their capacity for love depends on the attachment and caregiving behavioral systems, it follows that either one or both of these is affected by secondary psychopathy. According to the Five Factor Model (OCEAN), individuals who are low in agreeableness (high in antagonism) and high in disinhibition tend to have insecure attachment, deficient caregiving, high neuroticism, high dominance, and unrestricted sociosexual orientation. Dominance in relationships (overtly or covertly expressed) ensures that the Borderline’s physical and psychological needs are met, regardless of their partner’s well-being. Caveat emptor: Deep in the woods of Borderlandia, hate eventually becomes a surrogate for love, because love is an egocentric prelude to a much darker world. It’s all peace, love, and understanding until somebody gets hurt.
The brain is the organ of destiny. — Wilder Penfield
The neuroscience of Borderline Personality Disorder is both fascinating and unsettling. BPDs interpret their surroundings through a gallery of uncensored emotions that defy normal comprehension. It’s not rational because BPD is the preeminent domain of irrationality. Remember, BPD is not just a behavioral disorder; it’s a brain disorder. There are significant differences in both the structure and operational dynamics of the brain with people suffering from this disorder. It is well known that the brain’s limbic system (more specifically, the amygdala) generates the bulk of human emotions, including feelings of love, sexual desire, fear, aggression, and hatred. However, these emotional states are normally regulated by the brain’s prefrontal cortex to ensure continuity of experience within the parameters of external reality. Without neurotypical filtering processes, an electrical storm of impulsive potential becomes as unpredictable as it is unmanageable. In some cases, the Borderline’s prefrontal cortex may develop lesions combined with with temporal lobe dysfunction. Hippocampal atrophy and anterior cingulate reduction are often identified with overactive limbic responses, which results in mood swings, panic, and dissociative amnesia. For BPDs, the fight or flight mode never takes a break because of their high index of suspicion. Excessive emotional reactivity occurs because critical faculties are not functioning properly during periods of stress. These “filters of reason” appear relatively absent or significantly diminished in Borderlines, thus resulting in a unique hyperarousal of the frontolimbic network with unregulated feeling states. In addition, studies have shown that BPDs have an overactive hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal area (HPA axis), which creates hypersensitivity to stress as manifested through excessive anxiety. When Borderline Personality Disorder is misdiagnosed as Bipolar Disorder, it’s crucial to understand the difference between cycles of mood due to neurochemical instability (Bipolar) and cycles of emotional instability (Borderline) arising from the influence of stressful interpersonal factors. To put it mildly, Borderlines have a brain that reacts to stress differently than the rest of us. Subsequently, BPDs will create a world that makes sense to them as a way of overcoming or compensating for these cognitive impairments.
Because the Borderline’s feelings are not mitigated by the brain’s usual gates and checkpoints, a wide range of competing emotions are experienced with incomparable severity. For the non-borderline, witnessing these extremes of emotion can be both captivating and terrifying. The BPD’s feelings of joy and enthusiasm are as unrestrained as their feelings of fear, paranoia, anger, hatred, and resentment. For example, euphoric displays of idealization and affection are compelling because such emotional intensity is abnormally exciting. On the downside, inappropriate expressions of hostility will be experienced by the non-borderline as vicious, confusing, cruel, and unusually disturbing. Furthermore, the BPD’s emotional reactions during periods of extreme stress are not amenable to effective self-monitoring or self-reflection. In fact, these feeling states (self-states) can erratically alternate without warning. Dysphoria and tension often precede acute emotional discharges that launch a Borderline into a different persona, but the moment when this occurs is unpredictable. Not having a cohesive or integrated sense of self results in shifting goals, plans, and values. Likewise, a person with BPD is unable to see others as cohesive and integrated. As the Borderline’s mood runs amok, an enveloping backdrop of fear becomes omnipresent—like an invading force that permeates everything. The BPD’s manifest image at any given moment is contingent on the precarious mechanisms of a reactionary mind, and this uncanny juxtaposition will surprise anyone who tries to make sense of such counterintuitive behaviors and cognition. Dysregulated minds are primarily disempathic minds, especially when reality threatens their defense mechanisms. Borderlines have a truncated form of affective empathy (emotional empathy), but they experience difficulty with cognitive empathy (understanding the perspective of others). The feelings of a Borderline are intense, but they lack continuity and are subjectively biased towards catastrophizing. When the rubber hits the road, the BPD’s reactivity can become so merciless that it will burn down everything within their interpersonal radius.
*Caveat for therapists to consider: Borderlines are more responsive to emotional and physical demonstrations of care (i.e., proximal reassurance, comforting voices, hugs, and positive eye contact) than they are to logical conversations about the importance of behavior management, self-awareness, cognition, and self-efficacy. In such situations, the client and therapist may feel like they are talking past one another, when, in fact, they’re speaking two separate languages. These gaps in communication require that therapists remain steadfast in order to guide these clients out of a dense forest of competing thoughts and desires.
Being a hero is about the shortest-lived profession on earth. — Will Rogers
Borderlines are like runaway trains searching for someone who will save them from emotional derailment. In their compulsive quest for control, they are literally out of control. BPDs can surreptitiously condition others to respond to their feelings of desperation through forced teaming, and conscientious therapists may feel compelled to go the extra mile—like a case manager on steroids—as a gesture of loyalty. However, these expectations place enormous pressure on therapists to compensate for the BPD’s desire for unconditional support. Unfortunately, the therapist’s rescue attempts will only reinforce the client’s dependence and further vindicate their assertions of distress (BPDs often claim to be mistreated by those who are supporting them either financially or emotionally). In short, the therapist may feel obligated to take care of the Borderline until the caretaking fuel runs out. But a clinical death trap of Faustian proportions awaits the therapist if they become the client’s go-to person (aka “favorite person”) for emotional support. The Borderline’s favorite person is based on a fabricated image (the “distorted other”) that places the therapist on a superhuman pedestal to serve the unfulfilled needs of the client. A subset of BPDs live in a fantasy world inhabited by heroes and villains to protect themselves from painful memories of childhood trauma. As a consequence of such unrealistic constructions, therapists will unknowingly be subjected to tests and confirmations that either prove or disprove their caretaking worth. The Borderline is “fishing” for responses that ensure trust and safety from the “good enough” mother who is now represented by the therapist. Subsequently, the personification of a mythological trope ensues: The therapist, like many before them, becomes the Borderline’s latest knight in shining armor. In this seemingly marvelous reconnaissance mission, the BPD’s need to feel protected and nurtured matches perfectly with the therapist’s need to be seen as a universally compassionate and competent caregiver. Unfortunately, the BPD’s performance evaluation of the therapist’s valiant rescue efforts often results in effusive praise followed by devastating disappointment. There is no perfectly heroic caregiver, and Borderlines must reconcile with this fact. Meanwhile, therapists should refuse to accept the nomination.
Because the most significant goal of Borderlines is to gain the unequivocal concern of caretakers, this disorder may be the most challenging condition for clinicians to work with when it comes to maintaining professional boundaries. Borderline Personality Disorder represents a strange inversion of reasoning. BPDs are aggressive, and yet insecure. Demanding, and yet suspicious. Needy, and yet implacable. Helpless, and yet controlling. Competitive, and yet fearful. Therapists have a job that depends on building trust with their clients, but BPDs live in a perpetual state of mistrust. Impossible standards of care will be expected before the Borderline feels comfortable enough to “trust” their caregiver. However, attending to these expectations without taking sufficient precautions is the beginning of a downward spiral. In the world of BPD communication, everything is upside down and contradictory; it’s a complicated game of surreal semantics that must be carefully unpacked and analyzed. Assumptions are dangerous. Words like trust, relationship, friendship, family, love, and care have entirely different meanings for Borderlines, and any deviation from their emotionally challenged dictionary spells trouble. No matter how synchronized you may feel when conversing with a Borderline, you’re not reading from the same page, chapter, or book. BPD speak is the coded language of trauma that passes as everyday vernacular. Borderlines are relationally illiterate, communicationally challenged, interpersonally mistrustful, and emotionally volatile. There is no intersubjective agreement, because Borderlines—being low in agreeableness—expect others to agree with their distorted views regarding the nature of reality.
Givers need to set limits because takers rarely do. — Rachel Wolchin
“Setting limits with individuals with Borderline Personality Disorder often causes them to experience frustration which may be expressed as rage. Refusing them or restricting them in any way causes them to feel slighted, or worse, rejected. These feelings leave them feeling victimized, which then justifies lashing out behavior. This may take the form of challenges to the boundary, or possibly abusive behavior towards you for setting the boundary. Individuals with BPD not only feel the sense of helplessness that others associate with feeling like a victim, they also experience the boundary as an accusation of unworthiness,” says Dr. Daniel S. Lobel.
Borderlines crave the sensation of control, so therapists should expect to feel dominated at some point during the therapeutic alliance. Therapists may rationalize exceptions to treatment and loosen boundaries as a way of surrendering to the client’s increasing demands for validation, or to demonstrate solidarity within the therapeutic relationship. BPDs instinctively perceive boundaries as a form of rejection, so they will ignore these inconvenient barriers to bonding. It’s a precarious predicament, because Borderlines think of themselves as being entitled to customized experiences that cater to their immediate emotional needs. Why shouldn’t they? After all, they feel numb, empty, bored, and worthless without a continuous supply of affirmation, consolation, support, and stimulation. Mental health patients who travel along the Cluster B bypass are no fans of delayed gratification. BPDs fail the Stanford marshmallow experiment because indulgence supersedes forward thinking. Borderlines often expect frequent contact with their caregivers via phone calls, email, texts, and emergency visits. However, not wanting to alienate or hurt the feelings of a BPD in the short-term may result in confusion and resentment for both parties when boundaries are no longer amenable to remediation. If therapy evolves from being professional to becoming more “friendly,” it’s only a matter of time before a BPD will initiate further efforts to decimate the remaining power differential. Shared decision making with a Borderline is treacherous territory. The BPD’s urgency to have their needs prioritized can lead to multiple role endorsements by caregivers, such as becoming an advocate, family interventionist, apologist, avenger, secretary, friend, parent, emotional support ambassador, babysitter, and emergency manager. It must be understood that Borderlines will elicit strong emotional responses from their caregivers, and these responses are commonly experienced as intensified concern (i.e., feelings of pity, outrage, or moral panic). Being aware of your own emotions is just as important as being aware of your client’s emotions. Therapists must trust their professional instincts more than the emotionally driven impulses of a BPD, but patients in distress can be difficult to assess with neutrality. Precipitously, the dynamics of therapy will be governed by the client’s capricious emotional states instead of being effectively analyzed and redirected by the therapist. BPDs are in the molding business as they search for those who are willing to become malleable acolytes in service of their “id without a grid.” The BPD’s basic message is: If you care for me, you will do something to make it better right now! The therapist’s protective instinct will automatically be innervated by such displays of desperation, because no caregiver wants to be seen as uncaring. It’s a Catch-22 situation. Like the parable of Thales, therapists can fall into a bottomless well of boundary violations as they attend to the Borderline’s constellation of insurmountable needs. What was once an analytic space is now lost in space.
Psychotherapists face an unavoidable paradox. They must immerse themselves in the moment to empathize with patients and emotionally distance themselves to maintain boundaries, or offer perspectives to foster change (Bateman & Fonagy, 2006). Philosophically, therapists strive to adopt a dialectical stance in which they simultaneously accept the patient while facilitating change in the patient (Koerner, 2012). From a practical standpoint this means switching between validation and change during a session, often in the same intervention, and flexibly navigating this contradiction (Koerner, 2012). Gabbard & Wilkinson (1994) argued that therapists typically react by becoming either over-involved to “save” the patient or under-involved to emotionally distance themselves.
Controlling my environment was still a compelling need for me. I did everything I could to not be surprised by anything. Looking back, I think that my need to predict how my day was going to unfold was a direct response to the amount of chaos in my childhood. — Olga Trujillo
It’s important to be aware of the Borderline’s unrealistic expectations for validation, proximity, and reassurance. They cannot tolerate being alone (autophobia) and have great difficulty managing emotionally stressful situations. Without self-acceptance, BPDs rely on acceptance from their environment. BPDs will identify characteristics in others, such as generosity or agreeableness, to get their emotional needs met—appearing retrospectively as premeditated manipulation. Incidentally, the longer a pwBPD has gone undiagnosed and untreated, the more refined their survival mechanisms will become. In layman’s terms, Borderlines are less interested in change than changing others to get what they need (alloplastic defenses). Other people (aka need-gratifying objects) are in a position to provide special services, but if those services fail to meet the Borderline’s expectations, calamity will ensue. Therapists, by definition, are trained to be of service to those in need; however, BPDs will take advantage of every accommodation offered while cataloging susceptibilities for future interactions. They will subjugate challenging interpersonal encounters because it makes them feel uncomfortable. For the Borderline, spatial distance may also be perceived as a sign of rejection. BPDs simultaneously seek and reject help, because accepting help that requires transformation makes them feel out of control. Notice the inherent contradiction: A helpless victim who needs to be in control. Perfectionism, a common Borderline attribute, is another manifestation of control that acts as a substitute for external validation (i.e., “when I’m perfect, then I’ll be loved”). Because Borderlines were often raised in families where survival was based on performance, they will try to prove to the world that they’re “perfect” by conveying an image of success. Counterintuitively, perfectionism also serves as a form of self-invalidation because these unrealistically high standards become self-imposed. Borderlines live with an embedded sense of “badness” that is often caused by insufficient mother-infant attachment and neglect. It has been argued that BPD perfectionism symbolically represents a form of “emotional cutting.” In fact, many Borderlines experience various forms of somatic symptom disorders that are exacerbated by self-inflicted injuries meant to punish themselves or to alleviate emotional tension and feelings of emptiness. Inflexibility runs in tandem with perfectionism. Borderlines are perfectly content with letting the perfect be the enemy of the good. Things must go a certain way, and any sudden change in plans is anathema. The Borderline lives in fear, but control makes them feel safe. BPDs will try to obtain as much control and power as allowed in adulthood to compensate for the lack of control they experienced in childhood. Control of their image and their environment is the Borderline’s primary method for fear management. Meanwhile, they’ll dispatch a decoy of ineptitude as they demand unreasonable levels of support from anyone who gets too close. As a result of appearing victimized, the BPD’s concerns can be misinterpreted as legitimate complaints rather than pathological patterns of dependence. Monopolizing the compassion of others is a full-time job. With Borderlines, you cannot separate personal motivation from psychopathology; it’s a distinction without a difference. Consequently, therapists who accept assertions of helplessness at face value are headed for an imminent clinical disaster. The BPD’s victim identity provides a more secure attachment to caregivers, but this attachment is unrealistic and unendurable. Subsequently, therapists will lose objectivity by allowing themselves to become emotionally invested in the BPD’s eternal quagmires. Welcome to the sunk cost fallacy for therapists. A therapist can offer support to a Borderline, but they cannot protect a Borderline from themselves.
Listed below is the Borderline’s “Tyrannical Toolkit” for obtaining recognition, support, affection, resources, and allegiance from family members, friends, romantic partners, or caregivers. Commanding the will of others is the BPD’s primary goal to mitigate their insecurities, anxiety, and fear of abandonment. Weaponizing emotions is the wheelhouse of the emotionally unstable. These survival-based methods of control are strategically effective because they demand responses from the Borderline’s “target” or intended audience.
- Anger/hostility: Anger evokes a sense of urgency and fear in others, which may result in attempts to de-escalate the BPD through appeasement and various efforts to soothe their rage. Although it usually has the opposite effect, hostility can sometimes induce deference and accommodation. Entitlement, intimidation, rage, and devaluation belong in this camp.
- Seduction/charm/flattery: Borderlines sometimes use seduction as a form of currency for gaining approval, or as a defense mechanism to avoid scrutiny. BPDs may flirt and flatter until others acquiesce to their requests and demands. To acquire secure attachments, Borderlines will become whatever they believe you desire, or they will tell you whatever they believe you want to hear about yourself (grooming through attribute mining). Either way, these approaches to “persuasion bonding” can be very effective. Furthermore, a BPD’s emotional seduction is usually as effective, or more effective, than their physical seduction. Idealization and “love bombing” fall into this category.
- Incentivizing: Gifts or financial obligations. Gifts can be used as a form of coercion under the guise of appreciation. Receiving gifts compels others to respond with gratitude while feeling obligated to reciprocate; it also establishes a false sense of harmony. Subsequently, others will feel valued and willing to do more for the Borderline. In a similar, but much more controlling way, financial dominance implies a position of ownership to ensure that all eyes are focused on the donor.
- Pity: Portraying victimization to solicit support and affirmation of suffering. Appeals for sympathy can be extremely powerful, because most people do not want to be seen as indifferent to the suffering of others. Threats of self-harm and suicide can engender compassion and compliance from loved ones. Martyrdom is another method for obtaining concern and attention, whereas malingering evokes caretaking responses and allows the Borderline to avoid responsibility altogether.
- Guilt: Shaming through guilt can make others feel negligent, cruel, inadequate, or incompetent. Apologies and offers of compensation will be made by those who succumb to blameworthiness. Criticism, blame, and disapproval causes others to feel self-conscious, or question their own experiences, thereby becoming more amenable to BPD influence. The engine of gaslighting runs like a champ in the garage of guilt. Kafka traps are inescapable accusations often used by Cluster Bs.
- Emotional Blackmail: An effective way to intimidate others into compliance is by posing unmerciful ultimatums. Punishment often awaits those who disappoint the Borderline. The message is: “Do it or lose it!” This strategy reminds others that the BPD is always in control. Double binds, bullying, and other threats belong in this category.
- Entrapment: Obligation through legal ties (e.g., marital, financial, children, or professional endeavors). BPDs will work quickly to secure contractual commitments from others, but this association may result in consequential involvement with the court system whenever such unsustainable commitments sour. More importantly, high-conflict personalities (HCPs) will use the legal system as a way to obtain resources, gain attention, or to seek revenge.
When they discover the center of the universe, a lot of people will be disappointed to discover they are not it. — Bernard Bailey
Borderlines share many similarities with those suffering from attention-deficit disorders, but mostly because they believe that not enough people are paying attention to them. BPDs were not given enough validation in childhood due to parental neglect, so they’ll over-compensate for this lack of developmental stimulation in adulthood. *Neglect may be the most influential traumatic variable in the development of BPD. Like an angry infant in its crib, the Borderline will aggravate others until they’re fed. The baryonic matter of the cosmos must revolve around the Borderline’s gravitational force, but the total mass-energy is no match for their negative energy. In fact, this is why BPDs are often described by others as selfish, theatrical, bossy, and impatient. BPDs are on a subconscious mission to course correct for childhood deprivation, and they expect significant others to be complicit with their needs for recognition, reassurance, security, and love. Borderlines try to fill their emptiness through continuous reinforcement of narcissistic supply (a pathological or excessive need for attention or admiration from others, or such a need that does not take into account the feelings, opinions or preferences of other people). The BPD’s egocentric behavior is caused by fear, and additional sensation-seeking behaviors to “medicate” anxiety result in more self-centeredness. Therapists often report feeling as if they have no life outside of their most demanding Borderline clients—there’s no division between their professional and personal space. By contrast, Borderlines experience others in relation to how every interaction affects them. Because they’re hypersensitive and paranoid, conflict is inevitable. Conflict is not created for purposes of effective problem solving, it’s created to keep the spotlight on the Borderline’s emotional pain. Although many people suffering from BPD describe attention-seeking behavior as a coping mechanism, which is clinically accurate, the end result commands the attention of others in such a way that resembles premeditated manipulation. As with all parsing of BPD semantics, it’s another clinical distinction without a practical difference. Validation is an addictive drug for Cluster Bs, but the side-effects are not limited to the user. “People with BPD often derive their sense of worth from how much other people are serving them,” says psychologist Daniel S. Lobel.
Harboring enormous levels of self-doubt, Borderlines experience a sort of “prosopagnosia of the soul” (identity diffusion) and rely on others to provide them with a sense of self while serving as sources of stability. Regardless of arrogant behavior, BPDs are perpetually simmering in a rice cooker of self-loathing and relative isolation. Otto Kernberg, a psychiatrist who pioneered a new understanding of Borderline Personality Disorder, believed that pervasive feelings of loneliness and the need to belong to something were the driving forces behind all of the other behaviors associated with BPD. For the Borderline, other people are props to help them achieve emotional stability while quenching their thirst for propinquity. Power through control over intimate others is their primary objective. Therapists learn that successful therapy requires patient engagement by developing a strong therapeutic alliance, but too much engagement with BPDs will create an avalanche of unrealistic expectations. A client with BPD is less likely to pay attention to the substance of therapeutic conversations, because they’re usually focusing on details related to the interaction (i.e., the therapist’s tone of voice; eye contact; the appearance of the therapist; non-verbal cues). In other words, listening comprehension is secondary to the Borderline’s need to take inventory of their surroundings. In a similar vein, the BPD’s emotional preoccupations cloud their capacity for being fully present (by definition, they exist in a dissociative state). But to be sure, Borderlines are equal-opportunity seekers whenever emotional propitiation is on tap. If the therapist has been showered with attention, this is primarily because the Borderline is seeking validation for themselves. Compliance with the fanciful expectations of a BPD is expected, but don’t expect them to comply with the rules and expectations of others. Up is down and black is white. Over time, trying to navigate such duplicity will become overwhelming (this is a telltale sign that a client is hitting home runs in the Cluster B ballpark). BPDs often assume that caregivers should be available on short notice to soothe their feelings of desolation and anxiety. However, the Borderline’s hypersensitivity to criticism and mistrust will make therapy exceptionally challenging without triggering their inferiority/superiority complex. Borderline pathology overlaps with covert narcissism (aka “shy” narcissists), and narcissism thrives on the allegiance of others to avoid narcissistic injury. Although Borderlines often present as warm and friendly, their fear of rejection can trigger a level of compensatory grandiosity akin to Narcissistic Personality Disorder (BPD and NPD frequently co-occur). NPD patients are generally more “solid” in their defensive projections, whereas BPD patients oscillate quickly in relation to feelings about themselves and others. Therapists who aren’t suspecting Cluster B shenanigans will eventually be caught by surprise—like an off-duty police officer during happy hour—whenever they say or do something “wrong.”
It is the fool who thinks he cannot be fooled. — Joey Skaggs
The valence of Borderline Personality Disorder is perennial desperation, but the BPD’s ability to maintain composure can prevent or postpones diagnosis. To act in desperation suggests a need for protection, although vulnerability among BPDs is seldom revealed as a form of subterfuge. Narcissists, psychopaths, histrionics, and borderlines are often experts at disguising their pathologies. Borderlines, in particular, can modify their behavior, interests, and appearance to please others because they struggle with identity disturbance. The BPD’s shape-shifting capacity for presenting themselves in a carefully assembled manner is a survival-based façade (aka “false self”) that improves social acceptance while appearing “normal,” thereby distancing themselves from their traumatized core. Overall, BPDs are highly skilled performers in need of an audience. Borderlines can be captivating, energetic, seductive, and glamorous (especially predominant among BPDs with histrionic traits). They’ve often been described as “fun-loving” and “free spirits” by those who encounter them in a social context. Many Borderlines are creative and intelligent with interests that can quickly become obsessive. Carpe diem is the BPD’s modus operandi whenever their elation reaches critical mass, but scorched-earth policies are not far behind. Borderlines are very passionate and affectionate people, but it’s a passion propelled by pathology and simmering with unease. Not being allowed to individuate or express themselves during childhood, Borderlines will work hard to become someone whom they believe others will admire. In fact, Borderlines are known to work hard at any activity that provides them with a sense of control, validation, and completion. Their goal is to avoid feeling flawed, invisible, or damaged by portraying an idealized version of themselves through appearance or externally validated accomplishments. When image is everything, you’re interacting with a person who has learned to survive through the art of misrepresentation and mirroring. Borderlines are often know for their sultry sensibilities, sartorialism, and ability to command the attention of others. For example, BPD males may present with a hyper-masculine persona, whereas BPD females often present with a hyper-feminine persona to offset their core insecurities. Borderlines want to be noticed, accepted, and thought of as desirable, but yet they resent being objectified. Ironically, their loved ones become need-fulfilling objects (aka object-representations) by association. Therapists must learn to ignore the client’s window dressing (supernormal stimuli) and pay closer attention to how the furniture is arranged inside the building. In other words, therapists must be good at reading between the Borderlines. Underneath the BPD’s veneer of well-crafted pageantry lies a cauldron of festering resentment, fear, insecurity, and hostility from unprocessed frustrations. Borderlines also resent the relaxed confidence and autonomy of others; a source of endless curiosity and envy. Why can’t they feel like that? According to psychoanalyst Donald Winnicott, there are five degrees of the false self. In the worst-case scenarios (extreme pathology), the true self is completely hidden. The false self is required to become so strong that it appears to be the true self. To be sure, BPDs are much easier to recognize when their suffering results in visible disability (i.e., overwhelmed with misery and unable to function). At the other end of the scale, the “nearly normal cases” still retain a false self but are able to meet ordinary social expectations. Basically, the Borderline’s suit of armor has expired, but they refuse to shed their skin. However, once the Borderline’s false self begins to crack under pressure, an impressive display of defensive reactivity will light up the night sky. Keep your eyes on the powder keg; avoid being blinded by the smoke; and beware of the fireworks.
Borderlines may incorporate double binds to acquire unambiguous commitment from caregivers. These no-win situations are efforts to preemptively avoid abandonment by asserting dominance, but they’ll be presented as offers that you’d be a fool to refuse. Borderlines crave the stability of others like live wires require neutral sources for proper conduction, so they’ll poke and prod to find out what their therapist is made of. However, the BPD’s fragmented identity is a foreboding challenge for therapists who have not been trained in treating this pathology. The monumental task of core restoration is difficult to manage without producing hostility or enmeshment. Too little engagement results in accusations of not caring, and too much engagement creates dependency. BPDs also have a preternatural antenna for spotting those who appear charitable, such as caregivers who are committed to making a difference. To reduce ambiguity, Borderlines will often use flattery to create an atmosphere of casual friendship. As a result, the therapist’s temptation to become more accommodating may allow an undiagnosed and untreated Borderline to avoid being confronted in ways that would reveal their pathology. Psychotherapy stirs up a lot of emotionally painful subject matter, and BPDs will find clever ways to shut it down by using whatever defense mechanisms they have at their disposal. Having the courage and energy to follow the Borderline’s evasive trail of denial will inevitably lead you to their unresolved childhood wounds.
Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. Fool me three times and you’ve probably developed a characterological disorder that has been fooling everyone, including yourself.
Voices carry. — Amiee Mann
Too much self-disclosure is potentially dangerous when working with BPDs. The therapist’s efforts to relate to the client may result in revealing information that will be used against them later on. Transparency is a double-edged sword that will hang over the head of the therapist like a time-released guillotine. Most therapists do not have the power of prescription. What do they have? The power of conversation, encouragement, reassurance, relatedness, and emotional support. However, the very qualities that make therapists good at what they do (i.e., being attentive, compassionate, considerate, empathic, and accommodating) are the very qualities that can work against them when interacting with Borderlines. Therapeutic conversations that focus on shared experiences are necessary for establishing trust with BPDs, but they could also reinforce a rescuer-victim paradigm that becomes internalized by both participants (trauma bonding). Borderlines can be very open about personal information, sometimes to a graphic degree, but therapists must remain dispassionate. Do not get caught in the BPD’s tsunami of effusions or efforts to procure collusion through overidentification. Furthermore, avoiding discussions about the limitations of therapy with a Borderline only postpones the inevitability of future disappointment and abandonment rage. Talk is cheap, but the consequences of misguided communication are not. Borderlines take things personally, literally, and have difficulty with understanding figurative speech. They need reassurances that are concrete and perpetually tested, but compliance is futile. Volunteering to become a clinical marionette at a BPD’s disposal is nothing less than professional abnegation that gradually occurs as a consequence of trying to please the unpleasable (it’s common for Borderlines to think of therapy as a bespoke form of customer service). Therapists who are non-confrontational must find ways to engage in measured confrontation when necessary. If the bargaining chip of self-sacrifice is enacted (masochistic surrender), the therapist is headed for an impossible task of perpetual mollification. For example, repeatedly soothing a cancerous outbreak with corticosteroids may temporarily reduce pain and inflammation, but it won’t remove the patient’s tumor. Borderline Personality Disorder is a form of emotional cancer. In some cases, it can metastasize beyond remediation (e.g., delayed diagnosis with poor prognosis). A therapist’s compulsion to appease a person with BPD may also occur if they’re reminded of urgent demands imposed upon them by their family of origin. However, Borderlines identify with suffering because being in pain was often the only way they received attention and nurturing from a caregiver during childhood. Although BPDs may plead with others to resolve their suffering, they’re ultimately too afraid to let go of what they know best. Attempts to remove a Borderline’s agony through reparations, ironically, provides more attention to the fact that they’re suffering. In other words, the BPD’s subconscious motivation is to continue suffering rather than working to coordinate a successful relief program. The most terrifying prospect for a Borderline is to take away their emotional dependency through exposure. Borderlines want to be saved from themselves, but yet they resent being rescued. In addition, BPDs will subconsciously use therapists to fulfill object-other roles that were denied in childhood (i.e., the emotionally available parent) or fantasies unattainable in adulthood (i.e., the ideal partner). Likewise, therapists may capitulate for purposes of correcting former attachments gone awry, or to receive affirmations of caretaking competency. The chemistry of familiarity is a strange brew.
Lookin’ for love in too many faces. — Johnny Lee
Subconscious transference by the Borderline and countertransference reactions by the therapist will undoubtedly emerge as sessions progress. Countertransference occurs with all mental health patients, but it’s particularly problematic with BPDs. Additional therapist-client bonding may occur because of shared interests, family of origin similarities, historical commonalities, and other forms of overidentification. Furthermore, Borderlines will use mirroring to create the illusion that they are the same kind of person as their therapist—as if the therapist is interacting with a version of themselves. Similarly, the intimate nature of therapy is magnified whenever working with Borderlines because of their intense need for attachment (an infectious intensity). Borderlines like to be liked, and therapists like to be appreciated by their clients. However, communicating with BPDs is a bewildering lesson in psychological hermeneutics, and understanding what’s really being communicated requires a great deal of careful analysis. For example, idealization (aka “love bombing”) of the clinician is a splitting phenomenon with BPDs who become overly attached. Idealization is both a defense mechanism and a way to acquire positive mirroring, but it’s also a form of misrepresentation. Being zapped by the stun gun of idealization can prevent therapists from seeing who their client really is, or what they’re capable of. When a therapist is immobilized by encomiums, the Borderline patient is often seen as innocuous, enthusiastic, or endearing. Not surprisingly, most therapists enjoy being admired for their efforts to provide support, comfort, advice, and reassurance—regardless of the BPD’s tendentious proclamations. After all, therapists are human beings who have their own needs for validation in an otherwise thankless and emotionally grueling profession. Nonetheless, this “admiration” can have a trapdoor that includes eroticized transference (an intense, vivid, irrational erotic preoccupation with the therapist characterized by overt, seemingly ego-syntonic demands for love and sexual fulfillment that goes beyond normally expected expressions of erotic transference). This transference dynamic can intensify because the therapist is literally paid to pay attention to their client through empathic attunement and unconditional positive regard. Idealization will make a therapist feel valued, but it has no intrinsic value. If, for example, the therapist misinterprets the Borderline’s idealization for genuine appreciation, a chain of events may result in the client’s desire to establish a corrective relationship. In such cases, the therapist may feel simultaneously drawn to the BPD’s desperate need for connection and express malignant eroticized countertransference, especially if the therapist is unable to displace their own feelings (BPDs trigger bonding hormones like oxytocin and vasopressin during close encounters). Likewise, fantasies of “making up” for the client’s dismal past might happen if the therapist’s positive countertransference is not monitored with sufficient reality testing. The idea of excessively helping the “helpless” is seductive because it triggers caregiver’s grandiosity (aka the Healing Complex). As therapeutic dialogue resumes, the Borderline’s need for acceptance will become increasingly problematic for therapists who fail to identify or mismanage countertransference reactions. Idealization transference is a clandestine invitation by the BPD to establish an uninterrupted symbiotic connection meant to compensate for deprivations in nurturing. For the Borderline, caring is often conflated with demonstrations of intimacy. History shows that the human intellect is no match for the power of eros. It turns out that Freud was right after all.
“Because of the centrality of projective identification in the experience of treating borderline patients, therapists often feel invaded and transformed into someone other than who they are. Attempting to resist this transformative process can be a formidable problem. Firm boundaries and reasonable limits will eventually reduce the patient’s infantile demands. When the therapist refuses to be the idealized, perfect parent, patients will ultimately learn that they must become their own mothers—the wish to fuse and be fed must be turned inward,” says Dr. Glen Gabbard. As Masterson (1976) noted, “Probably the single most difficult skill to acquire in psychotherapy of borderline patients is the ability to recognize and control one’s own identification with their projections.”
From an article in the Clinical Social Work Journal entitled The trainee and the borderline client: countertransference pitfalls: “Countertransference will be broadly defined as distorted thoughts, feelings, and attitudes toward the client, either consciously or unconsciously held. For the borderline client, the definition should be expanded to state that the countertransference is a response to the transference inspired behavior of the client. Borderline transference will be defined as a manifestation of the borderline psychopathology, which involves relating to the therapist as a tantalizing omnipotent, but potentially abandoning, parental stereotype. It is based on primitive object representations that are largely unavailable to the therapist. The transference contains magical expectations of infantile wish fulfillment that, if unwittingly encouraged, cause numerous problems for the therapist.”
Rule of thumb: Never go full-transference gratification. The key to avoiding countertransference pitfalls is to recognize when countertransference is occurring. Getting lost in the drama of transference enactments happens when therapists lose themselves by pacifying their client. Enabling by accident can result in some very serious accidents.
- obsession with someone who is considered an authority figure, celebrity, circumstantially unavailable, or of a higher social status
- constantly sending letters, emails, or gifts to the other person
- persistently making phone calls to the other person
- stalking their target of obsession in person or online
- being convinced that the other person is trying to secretly communicate through glances, gestures, or coded messages in the news, television shows, movies, or social media (aka ideas of reference)
- paracosmic fantasy (viewing reality through a lens of complex fantasies and magical thinking)
- creating elaborate but false situations in which the other person is pursuing them, persecuting them, or trying to get in touch with them
- feeling jealous due to a belief that the other person may be in contact with other “lovers” or may not be faithful
- harassing the other person in public, sometimes to the point of being reprimanded or arrested by law enforcement
- losing interest in activities other than talking about the other person or focusing on subject matter related to them
Classification of erotomania has always been object of debate. J. Reid Meloy formulated the hypothesis that there are two forms of erotomania: One traditional form, clinically accepted as delusional erotomania; and another “borderline” type in which there is no clear delusional disorder but rather where there is a major attachment or binding pathology colored by symptoms of continual pursuit and potential violence towards the erotomanic object. This second form of erotomania is characterized by its narcissistic, hysterical, paranoiac, and psychopathic traits. The degree of the disorder is determined by the discrepancy between the object’s emotional attachment to the erotomanic and the intensity of the erotomanic’s attachment to the object. For this type of erotomanic, relational intrusion is persistent and separation from their target is perceived as rejection and humiliation. This perception awakens rage-like feelings of abandonment that could result in chronic harassment, stalking, or death. The unexpected emergence of erotomania in a treatment setting can become extremely dangerous to the professional integrity and well-being of the therapist while developing a therapeutic alliance. Stalking is a pathology of attachment (Meloy, 1992), often driven by the force of fantasy (Person, 1995). In particular, erotomanic stalking is not amenable to reason and does not respond well to normal methods of deterrence (legal or otherwise). In the end, stalking is about power and control (emotional terrorism towards their target). Unfortunately, patients can become love obsessed with their mental health provider due to the intimacy of therapeutic communication and the nature of therapeutic alliances. Clients who stalked therapists fell into three broad categories: those clients who were needy and made early attachments to their therapists; those experiencing erotic transference; and those with personality disorders. According to Meloy, “Stalking motivated primarily by a personality disorder and fueled by abandonment rage will generally show a poor response to mental health interventions, especially if the subject is antisocial or worse, psychopathic. In the latter case, treatment should not be considered, since there is none, and aggressive prosecution is recommended to ensure lengthy segregation from their target. Most habitual criminals and obsessional followers are pathologically narcissistic and their intolerance of shame, defensive rage reactions, inability to grieve loss, and compensatory fantasies of entitlement and retaliation should not be forgotten. The abandonment rage fuels the subject’s pursuit, with an intent to devalue the object in real life, paradoxically restoring the subject’s narcissistic linking fantasy to the idealized object.” *Borderline patients do not need an additional diagnosis of erotomania to engage in stalking behavior.
For the erotomanic, negative attention is better than no attention at all. It’s their psychotic melodrama, and your participation is not needed to perpetuate the obsession. Nonetheless, you’re at the mercy of an obsessive, paranoid, and possessive mind. Risk assessment must precede client engagement because fixation becomes the erotomanic’s substitute for healthy human connection. Some delusional convictions can be as compelling to therapists as they are to the client, especially if these beliefs are presented as minimally counterintuitive propositions. Delusions are categorized by the nature of their content, such as persecutory, grandiose, somatic, and erotomanic delusions or delusions of jealousy or reference. If erotomanic delusions are misinterpreted, the therapist may confuse the client’s attachment-driven psychosis with an intense connection that transcends the therapeutic framework. Aspects of the therapeutic relationship can produce misunderstandings about the nature of the intimacy generated and about appropriate boundaries. Empathy or assistance from an authority figure may be interpreted by the erotomanic as evidence of true love. Consequently, the therapist may feel overwhelmed or aroused by the prospects of attending to such erotically charged inducements (i.e., falling in love with the idea of making the client feel loved). As a result, two people become entangled with the power of a delusion. Reality testing breaks down and the distinction between patient and therapist becomes obsolete. It’s a textbook example of folie à deux.
What the erotomanic desires, experts say, is an idealized romance that resembles a spiritual union. As noted in the book I Know You Really Love Me by Doreen Orion, M.D., “An abiding problem with managing these cases is the almost total lack of motivation for treatment. Those caught up in pathological love do not see themselves as ill, but as blessed with a romance whose only blemish is the tardiness of response in the beloved or the interference of third parties (often including the would-be therapist). The benefits of these disorders for the patient should not be forgotten, for they provide some solace for their loneliness, some support for their damaged self-esteem, and some purpose to their otherwise empty existence.”
“The object of affection becomes an ink blot, a Rohrshach test,” says Stuart Fischoff, professor of psychology at California State University, Los Angeles. “Whatever the object of desire says, the delusional lover brings into it anything he or she wants.” In other words, it’s the erotomanic’s movie and your part is not fully revealed until the credits start rolling. Because erotomanics have an egocentric bias, they’re perpetually attributing unrelated information as personal messages from their object of attachment. Not being in contact can be as problematic as occasional contact, because the search for signals (both positive and negative) keeps the erotomanic from feeling disconnected. The pathological process of delusional misinterpretation of perceived signals from the social environment itself may result from poor reality testing due to a failure of social meta‐cognition. In clinical training, therapists learn to put their patient’s welfare before their own, which makes it easy for them to underestimate or deny the potential for danger in certain situations. If the therapist hasn’t been burned alive by the BPD house fire, they may get chewed up in the erotomanic meat grinder. “A lot of the times, people can go on with their life, ostensibly normally and not have any perceived psychotic disorder,” says Meloy, who has stumbled across erotomanic behavior in his patients while treating them for other conditions. “It surprises you. You don’t know that it’s there.”
Characteristic of erotomanics is la belle indifference, which explains how they can profess to love their victims and yet remain so indifferent to the pain they cause them (Zona, Palearea, & Lane, 1998). An erotomanic almost always displays la belle indifference toward the suffering of their victim, and the complete disruption in the victim’s life they have caused. In this way, erotomanics are narcissistic in the true sense of the term; only the suffering they have experienced at the hands of their capricious “lovers” counts, because they believe, with all the unshakeable conviction of delusional truth, that they are entitled to a relationship at any and all costs to their victims (Orion, 1997).
We’re far from the shallows now. — Lady Gaga
Borderlines can pressure therapists into becoming “psychosocial saviors” if their purported tales of victimization and historical discrepancies are not thoroughly investigated. Fear and denial keep BPDs from doing any emotional heavy lifting, so they become experts at deflection by reorganizing factual accounts to avoid personal responsibility or feelings of shame (experiential avoidance). As a result, therapists might feel responsible for doing more than they should if they’re swept away by the BPD’s anecdotes of adversity. Therapists are trained to be of service to those in need (public servitude), and Borderlines survive by getting others to serve them. Unfortunately, much more will be expected than the therapist can provide because of the BPD’s lack of object constancy and inability to soothe themselves. In fact, the therapist could end up responding like everyone else in the Borderline’s life—attending to the never-ending needs of a desperate foundling in search of a supportive audience. However, the more the therapist tries to “solve” these problems, the more unsolvable these problems become (the tar-baby dilemma). The therapist may unknowingly represent the most recent target in heavy rotation on the Borderline’s take-care-of-me carousel.
From the American Addiction Centers: “People with BPD have relationship issues with nearly everyone in their lives, and significant relationship issues will often develop with therapists as a result of the therapeutic process of change. The patient may first idolize the therapist and then later totally demonized them (splitting), or may attempt to manipulate different therapists against each other in order to manipulate the overall treatment. Professionals who treat people diagnosed with BPD must be aware of these potentialities and even expect them to occur. Unstable personal relationships within treatment itself as well as outside treatment contribute to the difficulty of helping these individuals adjust.” However, the limited time frame of therapy is not equipped to withstand such relentless permutations of interpersonal stratagem. As a consequence, the therapist may begin entertaining taboo thoughts of attending to the client’s psychosocial “emergencies” outside of a clinical context. Without maintaining boundaries, the therapist will no longer be able to maintain objectivity; without maintaining objectivity, the therapist will forever be trying to extinguish the BPD’s peripheral complaints instead of addressing their core issues. Borderlines subconsciously manufacture their own misery, but they often make anyone who attempts to alleviate their problems even more miserable. Like a swiftwater first responder, the therapist will drift farther and farther down the gauntlet of BPD appeasement until the rescue raft of good intentions finally capsizes. The helping profession of psychotherapy encourages the development of a strong relationship to help the client, but it’s the professional aspect of the relationship that must be prioritized whenever working with Borderlines. In the BPD motorcade, the wheels of impulsivity are always out of brake fluid—it’s like having a hyperactive limbic system for an engine without access to a steering mechanism. If the therapist mistakenly hands over the car keys, the Borderline will drive everyone off the nearest cliff with their busload of needs. Meanwhile, the therapist should prepare to be thrown under the bus whenever those “needs” are no longer being gratified. It’s the parable of the scorpion and the frog writ large.
Change begets change as much as repetition reinforces repetition. — Bill Drayton
Addressing the continuous demands of a Borderline is like experiencing The Myth of Sisyphus on methamphetamines; it’s utterly exhausting. There’s not enough coffee in the galaxy to keep up with a Borderline’s level of impulsive energy. BPDs will make six impossible demands before breakfast, but any effort to fulfill these demands will result in six more demands before lunch and dinner. BPDs are mental health patients without patience. Adrenaline prevents boredom, because boredom breeds dysphoria. The problem is that Borderlines largely identify with the drama of their problems, so any attempt at remediation threatens their victim identity. Lacking in object permanence, there’s never enough words of reassurance, or altruistic gestures, to placate a BPD’s need for consolation—you might as well be sweeping a dirt road. In such circumstances, the therapist may find themselves making promises equivalent to the demands of the Borderline in an effort to reduce emotional reactivity; attenuate impatience; soothe anxiety; or to continue receiving accolades as an intrepid caretaker. As this temerarious gambit commences, the BPD will invariably become more dependent on the therapist’s attempts to stabilize their emotional instability. Meanwhile, therapists may become “addicted” to eliciting positive changes in the BPD’s emotional state. The Borderline’s ability to reshape the therapist into becoming a more responsive caretaker provides an insurance policy for maintaining centrality. Predictably, a therapist will feel professionally authenticated by gestures of lavish appreciation—willing to risk more and more for the sake of accommodating their client. Therapists who allow BPDs to take advantage of their generosity often have people-pleasing tendencies (therapy sometimes encourages dependency with clients who lack self-efficacy as a consequence of the power differential). It’s easy in these situations for therapists to feel revitalized by offering levels of emotional support and advice that are supposedly unavailable to their client in other contexts. After all, if positive psychology teaches us that finding a sense of meaning and engagement is curative, nothing could feel more meaningful for a caregiver than assisting someone who appears helpless and unambiguously appreciative. However, the BPD’s veneration of the therapist is always contingent on a continuation of appeasement within the therapist-client validation pyramid scheme. No matter how intoxicating reciprocal validation feels during the ascending honeymoon period, the end result will invariably lead to emotional bankruptcy, disappointment, and rage. Although idealization is a potent dopamine generator, therapists should take immediate precautions if they become the subject of excessive pedestalization. Adulation is followed by animosity; the cling comes before the sting. Borderlines and caretakers can become lock-and-key participants in a swamp of creeping codependence, and this indelicate union involves countless caveats. BPDs will use luminol to expose the bleeding hearts of anyone who is willing to be subservient to their emotional needs. Once the lifeblood of caregiving capitulation is located, Borderlines become merger-hungry hemovores of opportunism.
I went down, down, down and the flames went higher. — June Carter Cash
The therapist might regrettably believe that professional boundaries aren’t going to be effective in addressing this client’s needs. In fact, the therapist may have never encountered a patient who is so oblivious to standard rules of engagement in a clinical setting (BPDs were often raised in households without personal boundaries). Lacking in alterity, the separate identity of the therapist is not recognized by a Borderline; it is subsumed and instrumentalized. In fact, the therapist is unknowingly fulfilling an expected role based on the needs of the patient. The word inappropriate is commonly used to describe BPD behavior, because Borderlines cannot relate to others in age-appropriate ways. If a therapist feels intimidated by the client’s aggressive demeanor and infantile demands, a “Borderline Without Borders” situation will eventually consume the therapeutic frame. Additional fears of being perceived as uncaring or inaccessible during therapeutic interactions may cause therapists to feel guilty or inadequate. As a result, exceptions to standards of care are made to keep their “special client” engaged (aka VIP syndrome). BPDs occupy a privileged position as mental health clients, because they often respond in treatment according to the whims of an unruly child while being granted the respect and legal rights of an adult. In some cases, therapists may feel as if they’re being negligent by upholding professional standards. Borderlines also have an aptitude for making others feel responsible for their feelings, and the gravity of this burden can turn some caregivers into deferential doormats. Crying spells during periods of despondency may compel therapists to provide comfort through proximal reassurance. Of course, comforting a Borderline is like trying to diffuse a bomb if you don’t respond according to their expectations (anything you do, or say, or don’t do, or don’t say has the potential to upset them even further). The BPD’s intense psychological pull has the capacity to draw therapists into their kaleidoscopic world of emotional mayhem. Furthermore, an erroneous belief may emerge that accommodation must dictate the direction of all future interactions. In other words, the rules of therapist-client engagement become secondary as the therapist is provoked by growing confusion. In social circumstances, it’s advised to limit or avoid contact with those suffering from untreated personality disorders; however, therapists have no other option but to engage with caution, or to initiate an appropriate referral. Subsequently, over-involved therapists may already be digging their own clinical grave sites. To be sure, Borderlines will defy boundaries without compunction while expecting caregivers to suspend the reigns of professionalism if therapy is perceived to be uncomfortable or uncaring. BPDs can temporarily “play nice,” but only if you’re following their shifting rules and expectations. BPDs do not trust others because they couldn’t trust their parents; furthermore, they can’t trust themselves. Most importantly, therapists must not let their objectivity become a slave to the Borderline’s subjectivity. If a boundary free zone is established, therapists should expect an escalation of efforts by the BPD to dominate the direction of all subsequent interactions. Whenever the floodgates of unconditional acceptance open up, Borderlines become Dionysian tornadoes bent on annihilating the Apollonian structures of psychotherapy. BPDs can be rewarding to work with if you know what you’re doing, but you must always be aware of the fine print. The only predictable variable when working with this population is unpredictability.
“This good and bad dichotomy plays out in the therapist’s office. The client may try to entice the therapist to gratify their dependency needs and the therapist may feel compelled to collude with client’s regression. If the therapist does not gratify, but rather confronts the lack of responsibility, for example, then the client may feel abandoned and compensate with rage, seeing the therapist as ‘mean’ and not supportive. Therapists unconsciously collude by giving too much advice, not expecting the client to act responsibly in all situations, and tolerating acting-out behaviors. The therapist may fear the client will judge them harshly and leave if they are too confrontational,” states Dr. Patricia Frisch.
Yeah, yeah, my shit’s fucked up; it has to happen to the best of us. — Warren Zevon
A veritable recipe for disaster awaits therapists who are coping with issues of their own, such as compassion fatigue, major life transitions, marriage issues, family problems, work stress, anxiety, or depression. To be certain, there will come a time in every therapist’s career when their personal problems will match or surpass those of their clients. Improving the lives of others leaves little time for improving one’s own life, and working with a clandestine Borderline is an insurmountable challenge if the therapist is not operating on all cylinders. Therapists must suppress their emotions due to the nature of their work, but this occupational necessity can make working with BPDs exponentially problematic. Contrary to professional stereotypes, therapists are not emotionally impervious automatons, and many come into the field replete with their own trauma histories. Therapists, by definition, are expected to be accepting, non-judgmental, and supportive of their clients, but the process of therapy can be emotionally draining. Because BPDs relate to the world through a labyrinth of dysregulated emotions, the therapist must work even harder to manage theirs. As a reminder, a therapist’s unresolved conflicts, family history, stressors, and personal problems will become magnified through transference-induced provocations whenever interacting with clients, but especially when conducting therapy with Borderlines. A reliable axis of balance is required before being able to identify various degrees of imbalance in others. Likewise, losing one’s proverbial mind can sometimes occur as a byproduct of working with those who have already “lost” theirs (e.g., vicarious traumatization and burnout). Therapists do not have all of the answers, but they’re often expected to provide quick solutions for clients who do not understand that therapy is a process. Borderline clients, in particular, have a way of pushing against the therapist’s limitations with their impatience. However, if therapists acquiesce to avoid conflict, therapy will become a meeting of the minds with two minds short. Burnout can also result in therapists trying to heal themselves by healing their clients. When working with trauma-related issues, desires to “repair the client” may represent an unconscious motivation by the therapist to address their own trauma history (remediation by proxy). Additional problems occur when a therapist in crisis begins to rely on comfort or support from their clients (those in crisis cannot adequately help others in crisis). Therapists must not allow social work to become their social life, or else they’ll start to blend in with their clients. Burnout is gradual, so therapists are usually unaware of its insidious effects. Elements that may cause burnout include: lack of control, unclear job expectations, dysfunctional dynamics, oppressive workplace, monotonous tasks, chaotic work environment, high workload, and work-life imbalance. Therapists need therapists too. Without proper self-care, the ability to care for clients will eventually disintegrate. Being a repository for other people’s frustrations, unhappiness, and horror stories can make therapy a very stressful and lonely occupation.
Well-Functioning is defined as the enduring quality in the therapist’s professional functioning over time, and in the face of professional and personal stressors (Coster & Scwebel, 1997). Therapists have many factors to contend with in life and practice aside from the dynamics of working with borderline patients. The most common personal problems interfering with therapist well-functioning are emotional exhaustion and fatigue (Mahoney, 1997).
For the clinician, it may be just another day at the office; but for the Borderline, it’s survival of the neediest. This is why ongoing supervision and consultation are essential, including a willingness by therapists to accept objective input and monitoring. Therapists shouldn’t be afraid to ask for help. In fast-paced clinical settings, there may be insufficient bandwidth for pursuing in-depth analyses of complicated psychiatric patients. Ongoing administration tasks, demanding clients, and continuous crises can condition therapists to become perfunctory multitaskers and trigger-happy fire extinguishers. Of course, no client is better at building fires than a Borderline. The emotional exhaustion of caregiving is difficult enough without having to manage an emotionally unstable client. The phone is always ringing with bad news. Therapists often feel frustrated by their inability to do more for their clients, and Borderline patients will evoke additional feelings of incompetence. Psychoanalyzing a thin-skinned client is much more difficult when the therapist is worn thin from occupational stressors. BPDs can expose a therapist’s deepest insecurities while causing them to question themselves and their clinical expertise. Borderlines will figure out the combination lock of their therapist’s amenability to avoid separation anxiety and hang on for dear life. Without proper training for early identification and comprehensive management of BPD, therapists are potentially lost in an ocean of misapprehensions and clinical missteps. Working with a misdiagnosed Borderline is like conducting therapy in Plato’s Cave, because the client’s fractured identity will present itself as an ongoing mystery (it’s like trying to nail jelly to a wall). If the therapist is not careful, the BPD’s regressive behavior will quickly capture the limelight. Logic is an enemy of the emotionally impaired, so don’t fall for the belief that logical arguments will overcome emotional reasoning. However, if you don’t maintain a rational and non-reactive position, you’ll set yourself up for the Borderline’s emotional ambush. Consequently, the therapist will become a reluctant participant, or a willing accomplice, in the BPD’s quest for enmeshment. Soon thereafter, a disconcerting array of rationalizations are incorporated by the therapist to maintain denial about their growing sense of fear, obligation, and guilt (FOG). Other reactions may include pity, excitement, confusion, affinity, and fascination. Therapists spend their days trying to transform the lives of their clients, but Borderlines have a talent for transforming therapists. With BPDs, the Rogerian maxim should be carefully reconsidered with a strong dose of the conditional.
“The limit of the therapist’s caring is often tested through pushing the agreed parameters and boundaries of the patient-therapist relationship. Prolonged engagement with a nurturing therapist can intensify dependency wishes and lead to desperate attempts to engage the therapist when uncontrolled neediness is triggered. The empathic therapist will detect the patient’s desperation and child-like qualities, and naturally respond with rescue fantasies of his/her own. If treatment parameters are not maintained, a vicious cycle may ensue entailing progressive regression to a helpless, infantile, and dependent state, alternating with rage and/or self-destructive behaviors. The therapist has the feeling that he/she is in the midst of a feeding frenzy,” warns Robert J. Gregory, M.D.
And you may ask yourself, am I right? Am I wrong? And you may say to yourself, ‘My God! What have I done?’ — David Bryne
Pervasive patterns of acting out conveniently thwart BPDs from exploring the origins of their neuroticism. As a result, they never learn to effectively cope with deep emotional wounds. Although dissociation and confabulation obviates emotional pain, it ultimately prevents self-reflection and results in more sensation-seeking behaviors. Borderlines, if they are anything, are invariably misunderstood by others. Similarly, they abhor personal criticism and do not appreciate humor at their expense (everything is personal). BPDs believe that other people must acknowledge their persistent feelings of emptiness and emotional suffering. It’s about their feelings, not yours. Borderlines understand the value of the squeaky wheel, but they’ve forgotten the parable of crying wolf. BPDs are not looking for solution-based therapy as much as they’re looking for reassurance, validation, and collusion. Therapy with some clients is like trying to teach someone how to walk again, but Borderlines will become obsessed with the crutches. In addition, BPDs rely on others for advice that is seldom integrated in any meaningful sense (solution implementation is a problem for Borderlines due to active passivity). A therapist’s decision to suspend protocol for purposes of alleviating the BPD’s unabated separation anxiety and recurring pathos is just around the corner.
“The ongoing temptation in the psychotherapy of borderline patients is to try to provide gratification for longings that cannot possibly be satisfied in a professional relationship. Indulging the patient’s wishes is a strategy bound to fail and also bound to engender regression by reinforcing infantile expectations, which will only intensify the patient’s eventual rage,” states Dr. Glen Gabbard.
Despite their age, Borderlines must be approached with adequate caution and consistent restrictions. Because of their emotional instability, immaturity, and inability to delay gratification, propitiation is a mug’s game. BPDs prefer to outsource accountability for their behavior because it prevents the pain of self-reflection. There is no such thing as contingency planning or critical thinking for a mind overwhelmed by emotions. The biggest mistake a therapist can make with a Borderline is to interact with them as if they were rational adults with an age-appropriate sense of personal responsibility. No therapist wants to infantilize an adult client, but BPDs sometimes require Romper Room referees more than collaborators. As a defensive response, therapists may become detached or hostile (negative countertransference) to compensate for the Borderline’s periodic temper tantrums. However, being too reserved or defensive could lead to accusations of being distant, cold, uncaring, cruel, or judgmental. This oleaginous tightrope is even more hazardous if the therapist is unaware that such boundary testing maneuvers are part of the BPD’s need for unambiguous acceptance from a surrogate parent. What initially felt like a once-in-a-lifetime clinical opportunity to help someone in need could result in occupational suicide if accidentally mishandled.
But then you let me down, when I look around; baby, you just can’t be found. — Madonna
Borderlines often seek support from those with limited availability because they anticipate abandonment in advance. But whenever this “doomed attachment” is disrupted, their object of adoration will quickly become an object of aversion. Borderlines view separation as betrayal, and perceived rejection by a caregiver will provoke abandonment rage. Without the availability of a compliant object for emotional support, the former idealization of the therapist magically evaporates as the BPD’s fear of abandonment begins to surface. Borderlines will search for malicious intent where none exists, and their primary mode of communicating disappointment is through reactionary rage. Without being able to regulate their conflicting emotions, and without being able to make sense of others (lacking in whole object relations), vilification will quickly replace adoration. Sadly, the therapist has been conditioned by the warm glow of being considered an ideal caregiver. The emotionally starved and competitive Borderline wants love to be a possession, whereas the therapist may have become lovesick in their pursuit of healing the client. BPD relationships alternate between gluttony and starvation; it’s all-or-nothing. Ironically, assisting emotionally starved clients can initially feel invigorating for therapists—the rest of the world disappears as the caregiving lens focuses on rescuing the needy. However, the therapeutic lifeboat will invariably hit an iceberg of Borderline indignation before caregivers come to their senses. BPDs prefer continuous streams of validation instead of being challenged, and they’re remarkably proficient in achieving such ends. Any ambiguity in the Borderline’s search for acceptance is terrifying, and the prospect of change is unbearable. Borderlines seek stability, reassurance, approval, safety, and unambiguous gestures of affection, but it often ends up being at the expense of significant others, family members, and primary caregivers.
I am because my little dog knows me. — Gertrude Stein I am because my little dog won’t leave me. — Borderline
According to Dr. Robert J. Gregory, “Persons with BPD have been noted to have a need for certainty and for complete understanding from others (Bateman, 1996; Shapiro, 1992). They employ a binary system of logic and attribution that excludes alternative perspectives that may create ambiguity. For example, they may tell their therapists, ‘If you really cared about me, then you would let me call more often. All you care about is your money.’ On the surface, the proposition appears logical and irrefutable. However, there is an underlying assumption that the therapist’s primary mission should be to care and nurture their patients like a mother. There is also an implied dichotomy or split in the perspective of the therapist as either totally caring and accommodative, or totally cold and callous. There is no room in such a polarized attribution system for a more ambiguous and realistic perspective of the therapist as having complex motivations, including some genuine caring for the patient, but within certain limits. What makes working with this population so difficult is the patient’s ability to provoke others into responding in a way that is consistent with the patient’s attributions and expectations. In other words, the patient expects others to behave in a certain way, and the therapist may feel compelled to behave in a way that is consistent with the patient’s expectations—an interpersonal process that has been called enactment. The confluence between the patient’s expectations of others and the actual behavior of the therapist results in reinforcing the patient’s expectations and the distorted attributions of self and other upon which those expectations are based. Therapists may have a difficult time discerning whether negative encounters with a patient resulted from the patient’s attributions and responses or from the therapist’s responses.”
Dr. Perry D. Hoffman, president and co-founder of the National Education Alliance for Borderline Personality Disorder, explained one of the defining aspects of the disorder: “It occurs in the context of relationships. Unlike other psychiatric diagnoses, if you put someone with schizophrenia on an island all by themselves, their mental illness would still be evident. If you put someone with BPD on an island, you wouldn’t necessarily see the symptoms—whatever happens, happens in the context of [interacting] with someone else.”
Instead of becoming a storm chaser, it’s better for therapists to understand the nature of the storm.
I’ve waited hours for this; I’ve made myself so sick. — Robert Smith
Because Borderline Personality Disorder is essentially an attachment deficit disorder, the client’s approval-seeking behavior, neediness, and search for unconditional love is often insurmountable. However, overly attentive responses to the accumulating demands of BPDs will result in an unavoidable crash landing. The problem is that therapists have been issued the caregiving equivalent of a pilot’s license and will be held accountable for any loss in therapeutic altitude. To be sure, many support planes have disappeared while flying solo over the Borderline Triangle. However, if BPDs could rewind the flight recorder, and muster a modicum of objectivity, they would find themselves bombarding the analytic cabin space and taking over the control panel. Just as the therapist has misinterpreted the client’s tales of victimhood, the BPD will undoubtedly misinterpret the therapist’s efforts towards appeasement and feel betrayed if extraordinary caretaking promises aren’t kept. This potentially high-conflict personality can become extremely volatile if their chosen “protector” appears to have forsaken them on purpose. After all, the therapist has been providing a steady supply of validation, reassurance, and emotional support in a safe holding environment. Unprepared therapists will be marinating in a clawfoot tub of Cluster B bathwater before waking up to find themselves circling the drain. Emotional riptides in the Sea of BPD can quickly sweep therapists into shark-infested waters. If the Borderline’s sense of identity is experienced as being dependent upon a stabilizing other, the therapist has just abrogated the client’s recognition of self; it’s like denying refills on life-saving medication. The remediation of this disorder depends upon the availability and compassion of others, but this disorder is also perpetuated by the availability and compassion of others. The therapist has unwittingly been serving as the BPD’s missing internal part, and now that part is wearing out. In the end, Borderlines will pull the rug of congeniality from underneath their caregivers whenever the support cart goes off the rails (cessation trauma). The Borderline’s dichotomy of self will vacillate as the previously dependent victim quickly becomes the omnipotent avenger. With record-breaking speed, the former idealization of the therapist is replaced by a 180-degree devaluation phase. A critical threshold of stress has been reached and the Border-lion within has been unleashed. Negotiation is pointless—it’s like trying to simultaneously de-escalate and outrun a cheetah. Uncomfortable feelings are not permissible, and the most negative and paranoid interpretation of events will be the BPD’s final interpretation. No catastrophe left behind. What was once an entirely “good” object is now a completely “bad” object (splitting), because there is no middle ground in the Borderline’s world of internalized object-representation. An overwhelming desire to feel safe again compels BPDs to bifurcate people, messages, and situations into digestible categories. Borderlines consistently put their needs at the forefront, so any sudden reduction in narcissistic supply will always end badly. If the therapist acquiesced to meet the needs of the Borderline until now, there must have been an ulterior motive (they might even make bold assertions about the “sinister thoughts” of the therapist). In fact, most BPDs don’t know how to interpret generosity or compassion because of the contingent “love” offered by their parents (i.e., rewards followed by punishment and vice versa). A therapist can work overtime to develop trust with a Borderline, but the client will ultimately decide when that trust is broken. Building trust through reassurance with a Borderline is like making multiple deposits in an account that never accrues interest and declares insufficient funds when it’s time to withdraw your savings. The Borderline’s performative paranoia is unavoidable—even the most innocuous comments or gestures can trigger fears of rejection. The resulting devaluation may include verbal attacks, physical assault, and other forms of angry retribution as their self-fulfilling prophecy of abandonment continues unabated. Most disturbingly, BPDs are unable to recognize the unreasonableness of these behavioral discharges during or after contentious interactions, even if they struggle with guilt or embarrassment. Memory and composure collapse because they’re reacting in an altered-dissociative state. Shame is avoided by projection. Bad feelings are disowned by demonization. What cannot be integrated must be eliminated. Destruction galvanizes the Borderline’s sense of power within chaos, and power is affirmation of their existence.
“Borderlines display a signature trait, poor observing ego, which is a dense denial of vital aspects of reality and irrationality to a degree that almost has to be seen to be believed,” says Dr. Daniel J. Zimmerman. Identity disturbance is evidenced by the BPD’s intense and tumultuous attachment to their love object. They yearn for affection, yet may eventually wish to destroy the love object, or significantly devalue the person’s life. The gratifying sensation of vengeance makes resentment feel justified as the “bad” parent is symbolically punished in a dramatic fort/da reenactment. In order to protect themselves from unbearable disappointment, the BPD will attempt to regain a sense of control over what they perceive to be an invalidating experience (impulsive BPD subtypes with antisocial features are particularly prone towards destructive recrimination whenever enmeshment is threatened). The angry-impulsive child is experienced by the BPD’s intense rage that is rooted in childhood resentment for not receiving proper parental care. Borderlines must feel a sense of control over others, and they’re easily capable of destroying what they cannot have. The beauty of shared experience is reduced to a competition for supremacy.
“The spoiler child refuses to grow up, remains dependent in some way on the parent or a parent surrogate, and ruins and/or denigrates everything the parents try to do for them,” states Dr. David M. Allen. “The spoiler role is difficult to maintain, so the child needs to continually practice it with other people. The usual candidates for them to practice on are lovers, spouses, and of course therapists. No one else will continue to put up with them.” The phrase no good deed goes unpunished has come home to roost.
The end may justify the means, as long as there is something that justifies the end. — Leon Trotsky
Borderlines can ingeniously reframe events for advantageous purposes, but retrospective discrepancy identification will separate what is true from what is exaggerated or false. BPDs are poor historians, because the past is written on the pages of their emotions. Facts are replaced by feelings. The arc of chronology is contested by the Borderline’s perceptual distortions in such a way that removes fault on their behalf. Confronting and coping with feelings of shame is not going to happen on the BPD’s dysregulated watch. Part of this disorder is the person’s inability to see their obsession with control and emotional reasoning as disordered. For the Borderline, what feels right must be right! BPDs seek immediate emotional relief, even if their behavior is absurdly irrational, dangerously impulsive, and consequential. Borderlines do not see their part in causing or contributing to their problems, because admitting such agency would require an uncomfortable awareness of unresolved emotional wounds. Likewise, BPDs believe that most of their problems in life are caused by external factors, because they cannot sit with themselves long enough to accept what they’re forever running away from.
Therapists will accidentally ignite new wildfires if they try too hard to soothe a Borderline’s emotional flames—transforming themselves into volunteer firefighters searching for the next batch of smoke. Doing too much for these patients inevitably results in unintended harm (the Hippocratic oath is eventually replaced with hypocrisy by proxy), because Borderlines don’t know what’s best for them. BPDs must learn how to make the unconscious become conscious, and they must accept responsibility for the demands they place on others to avoid abandonment anxiety. Remember, Borderlines are living in a state of arrested development and will overreact like unmanageable toddlers whenever confronted with emotionally challenging situations. Outlandish accusations of imaginary crimes and inappropriate responses can occur in relation to minor inconveniences or misunderstandings. Borderlines would rather be in control than held accountable (not in a punitive way, but in a way that encourages growth), and winning is more important than self-reflection. Nonetheless, aggression and defiance are not indicators of self-reliance. The need for enmeshment comes from fear, and the fear of losing enmeshment is offset by externalized aggression. BPDs see the world in terms of love and war, because there are no shades of grey on the Cluster B color wheel—it’s a fixed mindset without middle ground. If the therapist feels responsible for disciplining the Borderline’s acting-out behaviors, they will put themselves in the impossible position of becoming a designated babysitter (parentification of the provider). However, reparenting is an impossible task for most caretakers, especially when working with adults. Because of their immaturity, BPDs do not recognize the line of demarcation where their needs stop and another person’s needs begin. Assuming that Borderlines are receptive to rational compromise is an erroneous assumption. Normalizing or minimizing the abnormal, however tempting, is the most precarious decision a mental health clinician can make. Professional integrity depends on recognizing the parameters necessary for one’s own self-preservation.
“Psychoanalysts view borderline personality as arising from failure by the patient’s mother to foster coherent differentiation between self and object in the first 18 months of life, leading to the development of pathologic ego defenses. The patient does not learn to tolerate negative affects associated with separation; this continues the child’s clinging into adulthood, as if others were desperately needed parts of the self. Sexuality and dependency are confused with aggression. Needs are experienced as rage. Long-term relationships disintegrate because of an inability to find optimal interpersonal distance. Because of inadequate ego mechanisms of defense, there is little ability to master painful feelings or to channel needs or aggression into creative outlets. The patient has a fragmented mental picture of the self and views others as all bad and simultaneously all potent, a chaotic mixture of shameful and grandiose images,” states Dr. James E Groves.
There’ll be someone else where you used to be; the world don’t care and yet it clings to me. — Tom Waits
By using whatever means available, the focus of all future concerns will be relocated to the Borderline’s elaborate amphitheater of victimhood, thereby disabling all possibility of self-reflection and accountability. Misfortune solicits sympathy from others, no matter how much of this misery has been manufactured. In a Borderline’s binary mind, you’re either for them or you’re against them. The BPD’s desperate longing to use the therapist for positive mirroring has created an unexpected house of mirrors effect. It’s a peculiar gambit that occurs unconsciously for the Borderline: “I have successfully transformed you to serve my needs, but I will use this transformation against you for rejecting me.” An old country song creeps into the frame: I turned the tables on you, now I’m eating your food. The script has been flipped and DARVO (deny, attack, reverse victim and offender) is the new standard. The Karpman Drama Triangle has been played out by two participants on auto-repeat until the rescuer could no longer afford the electricity bill. Unfortunately, the very act of rescuing a Borderline reinforces their early experiences of abuse (learned helplessness). Reminders of parental neglect become inevitable when the rescuer fails to match the BPD’s benchmark of idealization. Keeping up with a Borderline’s endless search for emotional satisfaction is impossible, and making customized adjustments to fulfill these unwavering desires only facilitates regression. The therapist, no matter how personally compromised, ethically unmoored, or professionally misguided, will eventually be considered part of a syndicated rejection conspiracy. Borderlines own copyrights to the phrase: It’s you, not me. Accepting responsibility for decisions and behaviors is not part of a Cluster B’s externalized game plan. What was once an ideal caregiver for the clinging child has been cast down as an untrustworthy demon who must be annihilated by the punitive parent (talionic revenge). The “omnipotent” therapist has now become the personification of everyone who has previously disappointed and abandoned the Borderline. As intensified rage propels the BPD down a seek-and-destroy warpath, the chances for conflict resolution are nil (some Borderline’s internalize their rage rather than externalize). The Borderline’s polarized thinking, projection, extreme anger, dissociation, paranoia, amnesia, capacity for mendacity, and revisionism are the perfect building materials for constructing a gaslit firewall to make sure that accountability will always be a one-way street. Confabulation prevents mortification. Deny and project; rinse and repeat. In the Borderline’s extensive collection of defensive battle maneuvers, there is none more famous than blame-shifting. If the BPD can’t change their environment, they’ll blame their environment. Disappointment will not be tolerated, and blame-shifting quickly erases feelings of shame, guilt, and humiliation. If the therapist fails to maintain such impossible standards of care, the BPD will lash out with the ferocity of a wild animal when panic and dissociative rage pushes them into the collapsed realm of F2 psychopathy. Someone unrecognizable has emerged. Lifeless eyes, black eyes, like a doll’s eyes. Who is this person? How could the paragon of love so quickly become the personification of hate? But, you see, that “other person” was always lurking beneath the surface. The Borderline’s reactivity serves to protect their fragile ego, but it also exposes it. Retaliatory fantasies often become a reality whenever reality comes crashing down on the Borderline. The emotionally helpless becomes an emotional terrorist. For some Borderlines, these episodic meltdowns are so intense that they literally black out from rage. Rejection sensitivity can result in reactive psychosis when coping mechanisms for stress management are absent. Borderline decompensation results in desperate efforts to seek compensation (i.e., collecting for damages after feeling damaged). Paradoxically, BPDs often feel conflicted about their behavior after their dissociative fury finally subsides, but dissociative amnesia allows for revisionism and post-hoc rationalizations. However, rage results in perseveration, and perseveration results in dysphoric rumination and abandonment depression. In other words, BPD rage is eventually reshaped into resentment and carried over into future encounters, thus resuming the cycle. Borderlines sabotage the things they want most in life because they believe that it’s the responsibility of others to make them feel complete as a person—a job that cannot be sustained by anyone. Creating an enemy is how a BPD avoids the fact that they are their worst enemy (externalize what cannot be realized). BPDs punish those who act as surrogates for their parents, which means that they’re symbolically punishing their family of origin. For Borderlines to consider: threatening someone to love you is probably not the best strategy for long-term relationship success. For clinicians to consider: allowing yourself to become a human punching bag will result in your own need for trauma-based therapy. It’s not enough for Borderlines to be discouraged by unfulfilled expectations, such disappointment means that they must spread this surplus of misfortune to their object of opprobrium. It’s a heads I win, tails you lose, situation. Unreasonably impatient in their wishes for emotional fulfillment, a familiar pattern is repeated. For the Borderline, the mistakes and limitations of others are intentionally designed to cause them pain. After all, it’s what they’ve learned from childhood (no one cares; love is a cruel illusion; people cannot be trusted; and the world is a dangerous place). BPDs falsely believe that everyone hates them, but the reality is that they despise themselves. Squaring the circle of BPD determinism doesn’t make the circumference any less chaotic.
“The BPD’s perceptiveness and knowledge of unfair rules of interpersonal play make her capable of shredding the therapist’s confidence and effectiveness. Her neediness and identification with abusers drive her to ruthless extremes with the therapist. For example, a BPD may detect and appeal to the therapist’s need to be seen as a loved and lovable person. She will offer presents, ask to go to dinner, bring a bottle of wine to the session, plead for hugs and kisses, draw the therapist into confessions about his or her personal problems, and so on. If the therapist appropriately refuses to accept these offerings, he or she is called ‘uptight, cold, uncaring.’ On the other hand, if the therapist accedes to any such gestures, he or she is ‘dead meat’ at a later point in therapy when the BPD is angry about the inevitable perceived abandonment. After desperately and skillfully pleading with the therapist to allow such intimacies, the BPD is completely capable of switching to the following: ‘You violated standard professional ethics when you . . . and I am going to [see a lawyer/call your wife/tell my husband/kill myself and leave a note explaining why].’ It is at this point that a therapist can really ‘lose it.’ We therapists are vulnerable human beings. BPDs are victims who have learned the tactics of abuse, and they are willing to use them on caregivers. The BPD is addicted to empathy and nurturance, but it is vital that such support be given in the service of good functioning rather than in service of chaos, misery, and regression. No matter how lethal the verbal attacks, or how seductive the offers from the BPD, the therapist should hold to the basic terms of the therapy contract,” according to psychologist Lorna Smith Benjamin.
I was a peripheral visionary. I could see the future, but only way off to the side. — Steven Wright
What was once believed to be legitimate desperation during a crisis is now seen as pervasive patterns of emotional dependence (a continuation of learned helplessness). What was formerly considered to be justifiable anger derived from recent victimization can now be interpreted as manifestations of low distress tolerance, repetition compulsion, separation anxiety, morbid jealousy, and emotional reactivity. What appeared to be moments of confidence, assertiveness, and intellectually justified defiance can now be understood as compensatory grandiosity, externalized aggression, and a lack of boundaries. Displays of youthful exuberance, offset by periods of terrifying tantrums, have been identified as forms of age regression and emotional instability. What was once thought to be situational anxiety is now understood to be a combination of fear, insecurity, and paranoia. Demands for validation and intimacy have been providing cover for an overwhelming fear of abandonment. An inability to recognize the needs and limitations of others is now exposed as solipsism due to inadequate mentalization. Unpredictable mood shifts and impulsivity are retrospectively linked to the client’s perceived levels of gratification or disappointment during interactions with significant others. Idealization and devaluation are explained by the client’s Manichean mindset and zero-sum approach to interpersonal relationships. People and situations are rearranged to fit the emotional reasoning of the Borderline to obtain a sense of safety and control. What was thought to be a victim of abuse is now an agent of abuse.
Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed. — Alexander Pope
Borderlines tend to remember others based on their last encounter: The Great Moment of Disappointment. Everything that was previously done to indulge the BPD’s demands for special consideration will suddenly be forgotten (emotional memory blocking), because holistic integration of interpersonal experiences do not register for this uncompromising competitor. The therapist has been serving as the Borderline’s stabilizing crutch, and removal of that crutch exposes a painful disability. Exposure = death of the false self, which is experienced by the BPD as biological death. If the person suffering from BPD has a “high splash” response when triggered by fear and frustration, there will be hell to pay. To be sure, their formerly cherished caregiver will be left holding the tab. The BPD’s hypervigilant surveillance system obsessively scans for potential insults, slights, disagreements, and signs of rejection to maintain a self-fulfilling panorama of paranoia. Everything is personal, and they’ll interpret any inconvenience or change of plans as a form of deliberate abandonment. The slightest mistake or misunderstanding will be interpreted as a global catastrophe. Deflection and projection. Impulse and emotion. Passion and punishment. Grievance and resentment. BPDs do not have the ego strength or maturity for compromise, and their tenuous image cannot endure mortification. Without compassion for themselves, there will be no compassion for you. Why would anyone care? What’s in it for them? Informal resolution is not on the Borderline’s menu, because they demand absolute control over the final narrative. Reject facts and information that counter beliefs, because emotional convictions cannot be contested. Distortion (smear) campaigns, false accusations, exaggerations, harassment, legal retaliation, and other acts of obsessive revenge may follow; sometimes months or years after contact has ended. There are no limits to what can happen when a BPD’s emotional supply source is cut off. The better the fuel, the harder the fall. Grudges never die easily for Borderlines. One more thing: Don’t expect to get credit for your kindness, generosity, or the tasks you’ve accomplished. Remember, it’s all-or-nothing, no matter how many times you’ve given it your all. To be fair, Borderlines aren’t aware that such irrationality, interminable demands, and destructive reactions are primitive defense mechanisms to avoid feelings of low self-worth, shame, and abandonment that were formed during early childhood. And, to be clinically concise, the therapist has royally screwed things up because of an initial failure to see the forest for the trees. A series of clinical mistakes has resulted in a series of personal mistakes. The German language contains a splendid word to describe this type of regret-ridden hindsight: Treppenwitz (a devastating rejoinder thought of only after leaving the bottom of the staircase). You don’t have to be an ophthalmologist to appreciate the lessons of hindsight. The therapist’s professional miscalculations, poor judgment, and clinical deficiencies cannot be whitewashed, but one can always expect the unexpected whenever working closely with Borderlines. Being consistently inconsistent is what makes this disorder so insufferably persistent.
“The Brutal Clock is a variation of the Brutal Test where the Borderline sets up impossible expectations of others. When others are unable to meet these unreasonable expectations, they are punished with emotional abuse, which is justified by the Borderline’s sense of being the victim because they did not get what they wanted,” explains Dr. Daniel S. Lobel.
Free will is the internal forces I do not understand. — Marvin Minsky
A final question remains: Are the Borderline’s cataclysmic reactions to real or imagined abandonment intentional or purposefully malicious? No, not in any normal sense (exceptions involve high comorbidity with features of malignant narcissism, sadism, and Machiavellianism—aka the dark triad—suggesting a “malignant borderline”). The confluence of early childhood attachment disruptions, severe psychopathy, other personality disorder pathology, and a traumagenic abuse history are factors that represent the worst recorded manifestations of BPD. Although various traits of psychopathy are present among all Cluster B disorders, antisocial behavior for Borderlines is usually a consequence of emotional dysregulation during periods of acute adversity (hence, F2 psychopathy). For those suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, unfounded paranoia, panic, impulsivity, and dissociation are the precursors to reactive rampages. By contrast, there are highly sensitive people who may have been misdiagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder because they vaguely identified with some of the most common traits (self-report is an unreliable metric). Although recognizing BPD traits in themselves, these individuals would not relate to the character portrayal in this fictionalized account. In addition, there’s undoubtedly a segment of Borderlines in treatment who continue to rely on their diagnosis to justify selfish and destructive behavior, but their actual motivations would be difficult to determine with any accuracy. This is where the No True Borderline fallacy becomes relevant. For example, people with BPD will say, “I’ve been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, but I don’t behave like that; therefore, the person you’re describing is not a true borderline.” Likewise, those who have lived with a person suffering from BPD will say, “My experience comes from being married to a Borderline for over 20 years; therefore, this is how a ‘true borderline’ thinks and behaves.” In the end, we’re left with anecdotes, varieties of subjectivity, factual accounts, misunderstandings, assertions, beliefs, assumptions, informed opinions, clinically accurate assessments, and elements of truth that are lumped into the ongoing BPD controversy. In reality, many things can be true or false at the same time (we’re all on the honor system). So much depends on the storyteller, the situation, historical patterns, and the evidence. Borderlines will tell you what it’s like to be them, and others will tell you what it’s like to interact with Borderlines. Nevertheless, we must admit that no two people are identical. Generalizations are useful, but the person and the context will always be unique. Borderline Personality Disorder exists on a spectrum, just like the experiences of those who interact with personality disordered people. That being said, Cluster Bs are maestros at invalidating the experiences of others through gaslighting, and they maintain denial about their own behavioral inconsistencies. There are many BPD behaviors that repeatedly converge like a broken record. Likewise, many people who interact with Borderlines witness these converging patterns as if they were written into a blueprint (just ask anyone recovering from this type of relationship). Borderline Personality Disorder follows a pattern that is easily identified over time with universal features, regardless of severity. The key is to recognize the pattern before becoming entangled with it. Diversity is not a vindication of this disorder or its negative effects. For the most part, BPDs are hard-wired to impulsively think and behave in ways that will allow them to get their immediate needs met. In other words, Borderlines are aware of their behavior, but they’re not aware that their behavior is generated by pathology (the disorder prevents them from seeing themselves as disordered). They believe their thoughts and behavior are justified according to the whims of their emotions. So, it could be said that Borderlines intend to get their needs met; their motivations are unconscious; and their behavior is automatic. Bullying, seducing, pouting, coercing, gaslighting, and threatening others to comply with their desires is how they communicate. Causing pain through punishment (towards themselves or others) is a dysfunctional way of signaling that they’re in pain, but it’s all they know. When love is withheld, the world is set on fire. The drama is the point, of course. Emotional reactivity isn’t privy to the concept of courtesy, or having consideration for long-term consequences. Most Borderlines have low distress tolerance, but some BPDs have no distress tolerance. Another Borderline paradox: BPDs live in a state of distress; identify with distress; expect distress; create distress; but they cannot cope with stress. As a general rule, the survival of the Borderline will overrule the survival of anyone who gets in their way. Disproportionate reactions to perceived threats often result in destruction without compunction. You’ll be punished for not maintaining your role in the BPD’s theater of need. But don’t take it personally, it’s just Borderline business. However, the incalculable damage left in the wake of their rage will feel very personal. Hurricanes destroy lives, because natural disasters lack self-awareness and restraint. To be sure, Borderlines are the heavyweight champions of emotional storm systems.
The long-awaited one has come; I ask nothing more of the sea. — Madame Butterfly
A musical analogy for therapy-client relations gone wrong with a Borderline is the ebb and flow of symphonic development. In other words, the therapist’s efforts to appease the BPD were constructed from evolving variations on a simple motif: You are worthy of being loved. Unfortunately, “proof of love” for the Borderline is contingent upon reassurance, unrealistic expectations, and commanding the will of the therapist to avoid abandonment. However, the tempo of the second movement is similar to that of the first, but subtle changes in dynamism make it more consequential than it may at first appear. The evolution of this unsustainable saga results in a rapid crescendo of dramatic fusion during the third movement towards an ecstatic final stanza. As with therapy, it is never a single decision, but a series of misguided steps that move incrementally before resulting in a complex web of enmeshment that has to be unraveled as painstakingly as it developed. Unfortunately, the Borderline demands loyalty and insists on maintaining the emotional intensity of the third movement. If the magnitude of the emotional bond is not maintained, the performer (therapist) will be punished by the BPD who feels immense anger for the abandonment of a quixotic attachment. The therapist, who unfortunately became a volunteer performer in the Borderline’s theatrical search for true devotion, forfeited the conductor’s role of mediating between order and chaos. As a result, the therapist has unwittingly usurped the structure of the compositional (therapeutic) framework, and the disheartened BPD has unleashed a cyclone of emotional turmoil throughout the concert hall.
*It’s important to respect your rhythm instead of trying to keep up with the tempo of a Borderline. In other words, therapists should concentrate on reducing the BPD’s “beats per minute” rather than meeting them halfway, or becoming swept away by the impulsive speed of need. Keeping pace with Cluster B time is unsustainable (it’s the accelerated rhythm of hypervigilance), and the frenetic pulse will burn out even the most measured of metronomes. Borderline entrainment is a fast-moving train, and it’s best for therapists not to leave the station.
Assumptions held by BPD sufferers (according to bpdcentral.com):
- I must be loved by all the important people in my life at all times or else I am worthless. I must be completely competent in all ways to be a worthwhile person.
- Some people are good and everything about them is perfect. Other people are thoroughly bad and should be severely blamed and punished for it.
- My feelings are always caused by external events. I have no control over my emotions or the things I do in reaction to them.
- Nobody cares about me as much as I care about them, so I always lose everyone I care about—despite the desperate things I try to do to stop them from leaving me.
- If someone treats me badly, then I become bad.
- When I am alone, I become nobody and nothing.
- I will be happy only when I can find an all-giving, perfect person to love me and take care of me no matter what.
- But if someone who is “perfect” loves me, then something must be wrong with them.
- I can’t stand the frustration that I feel when I need something from someone and I can’t get it. I’ve got to do something to make it go away.
Absence is a house so vast that inside you will pass through its walls and hang pictures on the air. — Pablo Neruda
At the end of the abandonment rainbow, the disillusioned Borderline will be encouraged by sympathetic allies to collect misadventure points while reclaiming victimization. However, the clinician will suffer a much greater loss because professional boundaries were not clarified before sauntering into such a formidable therapeutic landscape. The path by which any therapist deviates from protocol can be retraced, fittingly, by understanding how mysterious the realm of human psychology can be during such unorthodox encounters. Clients with characterological disorders can elicit out-of-character responses in their clinicians. All therapists have professional blind spots, biases, and personal weaknesses, but there is perhaps no client better at uncovering those blemishes than a Borderline. BPDs are searching for the ultimate caregiver to remove intolerable feelings of pain leftover from childhood wounds, and they will go to great lengths to make this fantasy become a reality. For historical clarity, the distinction between pervasive patterns of behavior versus circumstantial aberrations must be identified for all participants.
“We often think of boundary violations and therapist misconduct as being malevolent in nature,” Dr. Bryant Welch writes. “But with a borderline patient a therapist can get into trouble by virtue of his or her wish to help and have a therapeutic effect. Under enormous pressure to prove he or she ‘really cares,’ the therapist is either going to cross boundaries and/or ‘withhold,’ thus becoming a ‘bad object.’ The grounds are fertile for BPD rage and disappointment in either direction.” Disambiguation: Enabling by accident can result in some serious clinical accidents.
Creative rationalizations can emerge in direct proportion to the Borderline’s increasing demands for validation and reassurance. To add insult to injury, it’s embarrassing for any therapist to admit that they’ve become emotionally ensnared with a client as a result of clinical misunderstandings, communication errors, insufficient boundaries, and trauma bonding. Like a surgeon who encounters complications in the operating room, the very act of trying to remove a person’s suffering can sometimes exacerbate it. Many therapists have too much pride in their abilities to call for backup, but backing out of Borderline Boulevard is never an easy ride—there will be damage because the margin of error is very narrow. Replacing the parts as they break (fixing the symptoms) will never repair an engine that needs to be rebuilt from scratch. No matter how rewarding the process of empathic problem solving may feel for caregivers, taking extraordinary risks to accommodate a client’s needs is not the same as encouraging them to establish their own sense of equanimity and independence. Becoming too involved with someone who self-sabotages in relationships is itself a form of self-sabotage.
Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. — Samuel Clemens
Specialized training programs to diagnose, effectively treat, and facilitate the management of Cluster B pathologies should be mandatory as a preventive measure to avoid Type II errors in assessment. There are more than 200 classified forms of mental illness, and no clinician is an expert on everything. The human mind is a strange place, and it becomes a lot stranger as therapists learn more about themselves while attending to the maladies of their clients. Respecting commonly understood boundaries among consenting adults is usually taken for granted, but it’s not guaranteed during emotionally complicated and confusing clinical encounters. It’s up to the therapist to understand the importance of defining clear limits at the beginning of therapy while being intrepid in the face of aggressive boundary testing. Recognizing clinical shortcomings, admitting personal issues, seeking consultation, and following ethical guidelines will ensure a professional relationship for the sake of everyone’s well-being. Similarly, it’s up to the Borderline to courageously work on developing insight by understanding how a lifetime of dependency and defensive reactivity have prevented behavioral accountability and developmental growth. In cases involving ineffectual therapeutic dyads, understanding what went wrong should be given far more significance than determining the correct calculus of blame. We are all products of our genes and our environment. No matter how hard we try to escape our past, we can never fully escape our vulnerabilities. Motivated by misapprehensions and a desire to indulge the client’s desperate need for human connection, the therapist became an enabler rather than remaining a professional guide. When working with well-documented BPDs, analyzing should never yield to appeasement; confronting should never yield to catering; and challenging should never yield to capitulation. When working with an undiagnosed or misdiagnosed Borderline, good luck trekking through those enigmatic eggshells (armchair deductions writ large). Ultimately, therapists who remain committed to pleasing others need to practice saying “no” whenever their client’s needs become overwhelming. In other words, BPDs will not respect a therapist’s sacrifices; they will learn to expect them. Sacrificial gestures become nothing more than a transactional endeavor that circumvents the Borderline’s fear of self-reflection. BPDs need others to acknowledge their vulnerability, but their mindset is not equipped to contemplate the vulnerabilities of others. Clinicians who work with Borderline patients must have an extensive knowledge of this disorder; adequate experience working with this disorder; and an actual desire to treat those suffering from this disorder. Those who try to help a Borderline the most may be the ones who suffer the most consequences if they’re not prepared in advance.
“Working with patients suffering from borderline personality disorder begins with an acceptance that they live in an immature psychological world, fueled by certain constitutional vulnerabilities, where they attempt to shield themselves from conflict and anxiety by splitting the world into all good and all bad. Although this produces an illusory sense of psychological safety, in fact, it renders relationships fragile and chaotic and drives away the very people who are so badly needed to stabilize the patient,” states Dr. Marcia Goin.
Now that my ladder’s gone, I must lie down where all the ladders start, in the foul rag and bone shop of the heart. — W.B. Yeats
For better or worse, the therapist will realize that being a caretaker, despite the best of intentions, cannot include the responsibilities of completely taking care of someone. The three Cs need to be reviewed: The therapist did not cause it; the therapist cannot control it; and the therapist cannot cure it. Consolation should be the fourth C, and it’s never enough for a Borderline. Becoming a surrogate parent, unfaltering friend, love object, support structure, or omnipotent rescuer to save someone from a lifetime of dysphoria is a recipe for disaster. There’s no pier strong enough to stabilize The Great Ship of Desperation. The therapist will need a bigger lifeboat to endure the Borderline’s self-generated waves of anxiety. No single individual can successfully meet all of the emotional and physical needs of another. Being supportive and empathic should never drift into the realm of everlasting availability. Likewise, Borderlines should be discouraged from providing transference-based gratification to their caregivers by association. The ephemeral anodyne of validation may satisfy the desire for human connection on both sides of the couch, but therapists may never find their way back home once the process of BPD pacification begins. If a clinician falls off the Cluster B tree early on in the therapeutic process, they’re likely to hit every countertransference branch on the way down. Codependent quicksand is a formidable force.
The only one for me is you, and you for me. — Alan Lee Gordon
There’s much debate regarding the term codependency and the popular idea that all individuals who accommodate or enable a person with Borderline Personality Disorder are essentially “codependents.” Codependency being defined as excessive emotional or psychological reliance on a partner, typically one who requires support on account of an illness or addiction. However, Codependent Personality is not recognized in the DSM because codependency is considered a non-clinical psychological construct. Furthermore, human psychology is a soft science that does not allow for all statements, or any declaration that demands 100% certainty—to suggest otherwise would be committing the fallacy of illicit transference. Although a common pairing in borderline relationships includes partners with Narcissistic Personality Disorder and nominal codependents, there are plenty of healthier-minded individuals who find themselves caught up in borderline relationships before understanding anything about the disorder (sometimes several years after the relationship has ended; sometimes never). In many cases, the partner of a Borderline has tried everything at their disposal to make the relationship work until a combination of confusion, frustration, exhaustion, and unexpected consequence forces a contentious separation (the personal, social, and financial burden can be enormous). Perhaps this is testimony to a partner’s patience, compassion, commitment, love, and resilience rather than a tendency towards codependency? In fact, the most common tendency among partners of BPDs is to view this type of suffering as peripheral rather than pathological. Interpreting and managing a Borderline’s unpredictable moods, while simultaneously attempting to solve the riddle of object inconstancy, would be highly counterintuitive and difficult for anyone (add a dash of identity diffusion for extra confusion). More often, the BPD’s episodic dysphoria, abandonment anxiety, and need for reassurance are the primary sparks that trigger the codependency time bomb. Another mistake is when partners try to simplify this complicated disorder by becoming crisis custodians—believing that each crisis is “fixable” rather than enduring. Many individuals stay locked in these relationships because Borderlines will assert, in no uncertain terms, that their partner has the cure for what ails them (i.e., love, special assistance, TLC, and emotional support). These assertions are so compelling that partners of BPDs will work even harder to “do better.” Conscientious people do not want to disappoint those in need, and tolerance develops through adversity. Unfortunately, the source of a Borderline’s “happiness and stability” will inevitably become the target of their resentment. Over time, their preferred support system will run out of emotional energy, physical energy, and resources. When this happens, the BPD will angrily assume that their partner never really cared. In fact, clinical depression, alcoholism, and PTSD are common among current and ex-partners of Borderlines because of the chronic stress involved with the rollercoaster nature of these relationships (these same problems can occur in adult children of a Borderline parent when trying to cope with the emotional fallout). There are even documented cases of partners committing suicide from prolonged exposure to borderline abuse, or being physically assaulted by their BPD spouse during a heated argument. Some partners become equally abusive when they can no longer suppress their own anger. Others are berated into submission, or find “creative” ways to escape the trauma of the relationship. Giving up due to a lack of motivation is normal when the fighting and drama never ends. This is why Borderline Personality Disorder is sometimes referred to as a “disordering disorder” (everything it touches becomes disordered by association). Furthermore, a delayed onset of diagnostic features often appears long after these relationships have been consolidated by cohabitation or marriage. Most couples rationalize warning signs when intoxicated by the early stages of companionship, and no one is immune to making interpretive mistakes about another person’s character (red flags evolve incrementally and are excused without further appraisal by those who are forgiving). The partner of a BPD is initially designated as someone who can do no wrong, until they can’t do anything right. Idealization followed by devaluation causes partners of Borderlines to question their own sanity as they scramble to get back in good graces. Intermittent positive reinforcement is a powerful incentive that offsets the initial confusion caused by Borderline splitting. Hope is a helluva drug. After all, everything seemed so wonderful in the beginning (Borderlines are especially exciting, fun, kind, and affectionate during the early stages of a relationship, and have many positive qualities that are accentuated by their intense emotions). Being blinded by the splendor, the BPD’s childhood wounds and internal conflicts are not apparent to the casual observer. The partner of a Borderline, in essence, becomes the unsuspecting bird who breaks its neck by trying to fly through a picturesque window. What can’t be predicted is usually what ends up hurting us the most. Cloud nine rapidly morphs into a nightmare. Borderlines are damaged people who damage intimate others as a result of their pervading instability. That being said, there must be a distinction between codependence as a toxic predisposition and codependency as an emergent behavioral dynamic that occurs during the process of communication and negotiation with a person suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, or any other personality disorder (rigidity of character obstructs negotiation). In other words, most partners of Borderlines are gradually converted into a state of situational codependency through recurrent interactions that become increasingly untenable. Just as there are people who possess borderline traits but do not meet full criteria for the disorder, there are also people who exhibit codependent traits (empathic sensitivity, conflict avoidance, and self-sacrifice) without being considered lifetime codependents (people with low self-esteem who seek approval and acceptance with an exaggerated sense of responsibility for the actions of others). However, a person who continues having relationships with pathological individuals may meet criteria for Dependent Personality Disorder. It should be recognized that Borderlines also share traits of Dependent Personality Disorder because of their core insecurities and emotional dependency. For this reason, they’re also vulnerable to being taken advantage of in abusive relationships—especially with narcissistic or psychopathic partners. Any behavior that occurs in relation to others should be evaluated on a spectrum. That being said, adult children of a personality disordered parent are far more likely to become subconsciously attracted to and enmeshed with someone suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder (both partners in these relationships are symbolically returning to the womb for emotional nourishment that was unavailable during childhood). In these cases, codependence is “predestined” and likely pervasive in other contexts because of maladaptive attachment styles. Atavistic familiarity is the most consequential vulnerability for individuals who come from traumatized families. Trauma bonds do not make good investment bonds.
Borderlines presume that they will be abandoned, and then act in a manner that makes such abandonment virtually certain. — Jordan Peterson
What’s interesting about Borderline Personality Disorder is that it represents a subset of pathologies that can upend therapy as a result of trying to effectively respond to it. Very few disorders have the power to expose a caregiver’s gullibility and naïve optimism like Borderline Personality Disorder. Therapists must be very grounded in their personal lives to withstand the strenuous provocations involved with BPD psychodynamics. Those suffering from Cluster B disorders unconsciously exploit the compassion of others, because they’re starving for special recognition. As with all Borderline relationships, there are only three options for therapists to consider: Avoid, challenge, or appease. For any progress to occur, these clients need be challenged rather than appeased; however, BPDs don’t like being challenged because introspection and change is seen as evidence of their imperfections. Furthermore, the power of love is only powerful if the BPD can learn to love themselves while acknowledging the limitations and imperfections of others. It’s not that Borderlines are irredeemably “bad” people, or fundamentally unworthy of love; rather, they’re completely baffled by the give-and-take dynamics required for healthy relationships. They confuse their inner experiences with the outer world until the two inevitably collide. Assuming that everyone will abandon them, there is no room for negotiation or compromise. To be clear, BPDs would benefit immensely from stable companionship, but they must first develop the skills that allow for individuation, fear reduction, anger management, self-acceptance, and self-regulation. Therein lies the great Borderline paradox: Part of the solution to a Borderline’s suffering is the availability of a stable relationship, but part of the reason why this disorder persists is because of how they behave in relationships. Even if a Borderline found their perfect “soulmate” or target of blame, they’d still have all of their work ahead of them. As a disorder, BPD is designed to obtain relationships, but it doesn’t have the maturity to sustain relationships. Granted, relationships aren’t easy for anyone. Borderlines split in relationships in the same way that therapists split regarding their opinions about those suffering from this counterintuitive, misunderstood, and stigmatized disorder (the stigma is often related to the amount of damage it causes for everyone). Overall, BPDs need to learn how to have a healthy relationship with themselves. Nonetheless, silver linings must exist for both the client and the therapist if meaningful insights are to be realized after such emotionally charged imbroglios. In hindsight, the message and value of compassion should not be determined by the origins or magnitude of our fragility.
We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time. — T.S. Eliot
In summation, the therapist was flummoxed by the Borderline’s misdiagnosis, victim identity, false self, emotional reasoning, and incomparable powers of projective identification when the therapeutic relationship was in its infancy. An underestimation of the BPD’s internal disturbance resulted in depathologizing what was clearly pathological. An erroneous confirmation bias was tenaciously defended, and the therapist allowed their own emotions to undermine the protective protocols of professionalism with an emotionally unstable client. Instead of detaching and observing, the therapist has absorbed, deferred, and enabled—thereby becoming an enmeshed participant in the client’s internal fantasy structure. Subsequently, the therapist’s shield of reason was systematically broken down by the BPD’s idealization, demands for excessive emotional support, and intense fear of abandonment. What was easily recognized in the Borderline’s family of origin went unrecognized in the client until it was too late. Something that should have been ruled out was regrettably overlooked, and the therapist-client enmeshment has taken its tragic toll. The appeasement to this type of mindset was preconditioned by the therapist’s own upbringing. This uncanny familiarity comes from a complicated dance that was set in motion many years before the clinician and client finally met on that fateful therapeutic stage.
Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards. — Kierkegaard
Exploring adverse childhood experiences and unresolved internal conflicts to understand how our past conditions us in adulthood is what matters in the end. Embedded memories and responses from interacting with our families of origin are reactivated for all participants during every therapy session. Many therapists are unable to identify the innumerable faces of transference, or successfully recognize and manage countertransference. Likewise, many of their clients are equally unaware of the influential depth that these symbolic-based forms of communication have on their own psychological motivations. Countertransference is the Achilles heel for therapists who become too invested in establishing meaningful relationships with their clients. A good question for therapists to consider is why they chose to work in the profession of caregiving to being with. For many, it could be related to the power of human connection; the virtue of compassion; the alleviation of suffering; and not wanting others to feel alone in their experiences. Most would agree that these values embody the essence of effective altruism. But can such aspirations become problematic? Are there exceptions to unconditional acceptance? Trying to lift certain people up in life may result in them dragging you down (misery loves company), and this is an important lesson for caregivers of all stripes to learn. Some clients require impossible standards of care that can only be assuaged by learning how to care for themselves. A therapist should never abandon their professional identity to alleviate a Borderline’s fear of abandonment. As a final caveat, be careful what you care about.
There are two tragedies in life. One is to lose your heart’s desire. The other is to gain it. — George Bernard Shaw
Borderline Personality Disorder is perhaps the greatest paradox in the Analects of human psychology. It’s a disorder that craves love, but it doesn’t understand the meaning of mature love. It’s a disorder that seeks relationships, but it doesn’t grasp the dynamics and limits of healthy relationships. It’s a disorder that yearns for proximity, but it doesn’t trust the sincerity of anyone who gets too close. It’s a disorder that begs others to experience its suffering, but it cannot see that this is the very reason why it continues to suffer. It’s a disorder that desperately seeks liberation from the outside, but it doesn’t realize that transformation comes from within. It’s an existential insecurity that cannot believe in the power of accepting itself, because it was not accepted when it began. It’s an anachronism searching for an idealized form of attachment. It’s desire without a solution, and loneliness without resolution. It’s pain and terror cloaked in a bouquet of artificial flowers.
And your long-time curse hurts, but what’s worse
Is this pain in here
I can’t stay in here
Ain’t it clear?
That I just don’t fit
Yes, I believe it’s time for us to quit. — Bob Dylan
Stacking a house of unstable cards is naturally going to collapse if you don’t understand the true nature of what you’re stacked up against. Therapists who prematurely fold their boundaries in the face of something they don’t yet understand will lose the game every time. Betting against a Borderline’s nature is impossible, because they can always read the hand of accommodation that you’re holding. Even when the mysteries of chaos are finally revealed, the embers from that raging Queen of Hearts will continue to burn.
This should have been a noble creature:
A goodly frame of glorious elements,
Had they been wisely mingled; as it is,
It is an awful chaos—light and darkness,
And mind and dust, and passions and pure thoughts,
Mix’d, and contending without end or order,
All dormant or destructive. — Lord Byron
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There is no doubt that healthy-mindedness is inadequate as a philosophical doctrine, because the evil facts which it positively refuses to account for are a genuine portion of reality; and they may after all be the best key to life’s significance, and possibly the only openers of our eyes to the deepest levels of truth. ― William James
The Sleep of Reason Produces Monsters is a phantasmal etching produced in 1799 by the Spanish painter Francisco Goya that depicts the imagined artist slumped over his desk, in a posture of nihilistic defeat, as ominous owls of madness and shadowy bats fly erratically overhead. This was Goya’s artistic commentary on Spanish society that he interpreted as succumbing to a lunatic’s brew of unmitigated fear, social antipathy, unrivaled corruption, and the liabilities of political unreason. The haunting image would persist as a representation of chaos whenever, as the poet W. H. Auden reminded us, the values of the enlightenment are driven away.
A little over two centuries later, in America’s post-fact zeitgeist of partisan sensationalism and multimedia gossip, the emergence of a toxic brand of emotionally volatile, identity-imbued populism threatens to destabilize society by appealing to authoritarian panaceas in the wake of geopolitical uncertainties. Relinquishing the faculties of reason, objectivity, dignity, and civil ethics when offered specious solutions for security or prosperity is as irresponsible as it is pernicious. After all, “total solutions” of Manichean simplicity are never realistic or sustainable in a world of increasing complexity and irreversible diversity. Just as Freud exposed the mind’s obsessive desire for a paternal caregiver during periods of crisis or vulnerability, we witness other parallels of uncritical yearning when people seek the mana-personality from Jung’s description of the collective unconscious. To mistake narcissism for competence is to mistake stentorian bravado for guidance. Likewise, to assume that personal significance or the assurance of safety can only be achieved through divisiveness is to perpetually recreate the very atmosphere of tyranny that one wishes to escape.
It appears that a grave deficit of cognition exists in the populace’s mind that prefers herd instinct to the arduous pursuits of objective analysis, social justice, moral philosophy, civil discourse, and scientific literacy. This belligerent lack of compassion, crude mockery of applied intellect, degradation of scientific methodology, and a selfish unwillingness to concede heterogeneity among communities has resulted in an abeyance of decency under the guise of exceptionalism.
Ideologies replete with paranoia, conspiracy, and mistrust were central to the atrocities of the twentieth century when varieties of fascism compensated for national insecurity. Balkanization was both anthropological and geographic in nature. As a result, mass trepidation created an isolationist vacuum for opportunistic absolutists to emerge. And their insatiable need for adulation would come at the endangerment of civilization.
As Thomas Hardy recognized, “If a way to the better there be, it lies in taking a full look at the worst.” Indeed. The evolved predicament of our human condition demands an identification of suffering; vigilant protection of social liberties; the maintenance of empathy; and an intrepid guard against the dangers of despotism if there’s any hope of achieving the means to an auspicious end. Otherwise, there will be no monster left behind.
Disclaimer: This essay is not intended to characterize all mothers suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), nor does it suggest that Borderline mothers are inherently responsible for having mental illness. In addition, the following material is not meant to discount the positive outcomes or life lessons that can sometimes occur as a result of being raised by a BPD mother. However, it must be emphasized that Borderline Personality Disorder is considered one of the most serious and complex mental health disorders in modern psychology. Like most disorders, considerations should be taken to evaluate levels of functioning and severity on a full spectrum to avoid over-pathologizing or underestimating the psychological disturbance of the sufferer. Unless BPD mothers are in treatment, willing to seek treatment, or willing to admit there’s a problem, they’re not going to be aware that they have a disorder—it’s up to their children, partners, and extended family members to develop this awareness. Generally speaking, BPD mothers are exceptionally resistant to being confronted or challenged, and they will invariably refuse to see themselves as disordered (from their perspective, being disordered implies being defective, “bad,” inadequate, or less than perfect). As long as the mother maintains control of her environment, while hiding behind a fortress of denial, there will be no incentive for cultivating self-awareness or embracing the process of change and recovery (insight and symptom management). Because of her resistance towards self-reflection, she will dismiss, minimize, or rationalize her behavior. In essence, a BPD mother is a psychologically damaged parent “doing her best.” The problematic thoughts and behaviors of a person with Borderline Personality Disorder are not deliberate; they’re automatic. A BPD mother “means well,” according to her distorted perceptions, but she is not well. What needs to be understood are the devastating effects that BPD mothers can have on their children’s emotional development, mental health, physical health, relationships, and ability to successfully achieve autonomy in adulthood. No one chooses to suffer from mental illness, and no one chooses their parents. Likewise, no child can be held responsible for their parent’s emotional well-being, they can only offer compassion and work to discover themselves through the filter of time with the courage of honest reflection. To be clear, Borderline Personality Disorder is not a premeditated way of being; it’s a predicament. Furthermore, this information is not designed to exculpate adult children of BPD mothers from their own contributions to unsatisfactory life outcomes, but it may offer clarity as to how their own behaviors and ways of thinking were formed, influenced, and reinforced in toxic family environments. Borderlines don’t know how to interact in relationships, and a relationship with their children is just another type of relationship. Sadly, parental analysis and family of origin issues are generally the last frontiers of discovery for adult children of BPD mothers; children instinctively shy away from objective assessments of their parents out of respect, fear, or because they may feel like a traitor within the family system. Because Borderline Personality organization stems from a combination of neurobiological predispositions (genetics) and maladaptive survival mechanisms that were developed to cope with childhood trauma, it’s a condition that’s not designed for effective parenting or intimate relationships. It’s not about blame; it’s about understanding.
If it’s not one thing, it’s your mother. — Sigmund Freud
In a previous post entitled Chaos and Elucidation: The Borderline Koan, I focused on the clinical challenges and professional liabilities that therapists may encounter when working with an undiagnosed or misdiagnosed client suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder. More specifically, emphasis was placed on the preemptive identification of BPD in treatment settings, the Vulnerable BPD subtype, and what to expect during emotionally charged clinical encounters. Here’s a quick review of the two-tier classification system:
Authoritarian BPD Interpersonal disposition: Compulsively self-sufficient, domineering, mesmerizing, intrusive, anxious, dysphoric, demanding, passionate, presumptive, judgmental, perfectionistic, fearful, competitive, impatient, pessimistic, combative, easily angered, petulant, stubborn, critical, paranoid, and envious. Attachment style: Fearful/Disorganized. Intimacy style: Erotophobic. Rationale: “I have needs for stability, predictability, and approval that were not met during childhood; therefore, I must be in charge to survive.” Valence: Aggressive, flamboyant, anxious, intense, and irritable. Parenting style: Over-involved. Objective: Control of self-image, others, and their environment (overtly expressed).
Vulnerable BPD Interpersonal disposition: Dependent, charming, captivating, coercive, desperate, mercurial, seductive, playful, hapless, passionate, anxious, perfectionistic, dysphoric, duplicitous, suspicious, solipsistic, fearful, affectionate, labile, docile, hypersensitive, desultory, fantasy-prone, childlike, vindictive, and jealous. Attachment style: Anxious/Preoccupied. Intimacy style: Erotophilic. Rationale: “I have needs for safety, validation, love, and nurturing that were not met during childhood; therefore, I must be taken care of to survive.” Valence: Coy, mischievous, needy, desperate, and enigmatic. Parenting style: Under-involved. Objective: Control of self-image, others, and their environment (covertly expressed).
For comparison, the Vulnerable BPD is similar to Theodore Millon’s Discouraged, Self-Destructive, and Impulsive subtypes, whereas the Authoritarian BPD strongly resembles the Petulant subtype. In relation to Christine Ann Lawson’s fairytale archetypes, Vulnerable BPDs would align with the “Hermit” and the “Waif,” whereas Authoritarian BPDs most closely resemble the “Queen” and the “Witch.” Of course, none of these categories are mutually exclusive, and there can be considerable overlap given the right environmental stressors, interpersonal variables, or social context. Although Authoritarian BPDs can be highly functional and self-sufficient, they’re emotionally dependent. Conversely, Vulnerable BPDs tend to be both circumstantially dependent (lacking in self-efficacy) and emotionally dependent. Regardless of differences in presentation, abandonment is the Borderline mother’s biggest fear. Authoritarian BPDs were usually parentified as children, whereas Vulnerable BPDs were often infantilized. When old enough to become parents themselves, this typology is reversed. In other words, the Authoritarian mother will infantilize her children (mommy controls everything), and the Vulnerable mother will parentify her children (mommy needs pampering). When the bell rings, Authoritarian BPDs walk into the ring swinging with a surplus of fear, dominance, and misplaced aggression. Vulnerable BPDs, on the other hand, are so fragile that they’re already lying on the floor and begging for assistance that will be used against the paramedics later on. Having what is considered an externalizing disorder, BPD mothers search for external sources of stimulation, validation, and emotional regulation. They also look for external sources of blame to avoid feelings of humiliation and shame.
In this essay, we’ll be examining the Authoritarian BPD mother (over-involved and emotionally immature) from the perspective of motherhood; how this disorder affects the mother’s children during development; and the ramifications of long-term exposure caused by interacting with a mentally ill parent. Authoritarian BPD mothers could be thought of as having an extreme “smothering” or “hovering” parental style (i.e., the helicopter parent) that disrupts their children’s potential for autonomy.
People often say that “every family is dysfunctional,” but family of origin problems are disproportionately devastating whenever children are raised by an emotionally unstable or abusive parent. Most children of BPD mothers have learned to normalize the abnormal, because the abnormal is all they’ve ever known. Likewise, BPD mothers have unconsciously normalized the abnormal due to their own traumatic childhood experiences. However, mental illness among primary caregivers is not the same as mental illness among siblings or relatives. Proper emotional attunement with one’s biological mother is arguably the most influential factor for developmental congruency and success in adulthood. Some of the most common traits of Borderline mothers include the following:
- Fear of abandonment and the perception that others are rejecting or separating from them, whether this is real or imagined. Intolerance of aloneness (autophobia).
- Having volatile and unstable relationships. The person on the other end of the relationship is either idealized or perceived as malicious, cruel, and uncaring. Posing ultimatums in relationships and searching for validation/attention in social situations.
- A distorted perception of self, commonly manifested as feeling flawed, victimized, or invisible. Lacking a stable identity which results in deep insecurity and compensatory grandiosity.
- Paranoia, which can last from a few hours to a few days. Typically high levels of stress cause these paranoid feelings. A general mistrust of others is common with hypersensitivity to criticism or slights (real or imagined).
- Impulsive behavior that resembles impatience, inflexibility, entitlement, or panic. These overreactions are linked to perceived delays in gratification or fears of being separated from loved ones. Impulsivity is associated with low distress tolerance and a hyper-competitive need for control.
- Rapid mood swings based on interpersonal triggers. A person with BPD may experience euphoria, anger, guilt, anxiety or panic all within a few hours. Psychosomatic manifestations of emotional instability can include muscle tension, fibromyalgia, ulceritis colitis, IBS, hypertension, dermatologic delusional disorders, and insomnia (the BPD’s anxiety and need for control takes its toll on the body through conversion-based somatization).
- Feelings of numbness or emptiness. Easily bored with a need to stay busy. Socially awkward, unsettled, worried, tense, and insecure.
- Intense feelings of anger or rage. Extreme and inappropriate emotional reactions to perceived disappointment or imagined threats. Loss of temper, which can be accompanied by verbal or physical aggression. Critical and judgmental with unrealistic expectations of others. Deploying the “silent treatment” after contentious encounters and rarely apologizing or admitting accountability.
- Dichotomous thinking (black & white thinking or “splitting”). Situations and people must be bifurcated into “good” or “bad” categories to reduce ambiguity and anxiety. Other people are seen as either enemies or allies. Stressful or challenging situations are filtered through a distorted and reactive emotional lens (adversity is the equivalent of personal threats). Poor or non-existent conflict negotiation skills. A preference for simplicity, certainty, and zero-sum transactional approaches during most interpersonal encounters.
- Emotionally immature (arrested psychological development). Often thinks like a child and displays infantile behaviors during periods of euphoria or stress. Cannot tolerate challenging emotional confrontations and will resort to detachment, projection, or rage.
As noted in the classification section, there exists two basic parenting styles among Borderline mothers: Over-involved or under-involved. But these polarized approaches to parenting can temporarily switch according to various changes in the BPD’s perception or mood while exacerbated by splitting or passive-aggressive behavior. For both Vulnerable and Authoritarian BPD mothers, an inability to regulate conflicting emotions during stressful interpersonal interactions creates havoc for other family members as they try to interpret or respond to such perplexing, contradictory, and unpredictable dynamics. BPD mothers are infamously known for being erratic, dramatic, and emotionally volatile. BPD mothers are also known for choosing either narcissistic or passive/codependent partners, but they often end up living alone because of recurring marital, romantic, and interpersonal conflict. BPD mothers are intense and exert a persuasive hold on their children’s feelings (emotional incest). This dynamic occurs when a child feels responsible for attending to their mother’s emotional well-being; it also occurs when the mother cannot get her emotional needs met by her spouse or other adults. In tandem, the mother’s children will feel obligated to predict, interpret, and appropriately respond to their mother’s conflicting feelings, thoughts, and needs.
Borderlines have an uncanny ability to notice details about others, but they lack insight when it comes to their own behaviors, or how others perceive them. The BPD’s interpersonal awareness is vigilant, but it’s filtered through a distorted lens of mistrust. BPD mothers can acknowledge the hardships of their children, but they cannot authentically connect because of their own anxious preoccupations. A Borderline’s empathy is limited, ephemeral, and undeveloped. The mother has affective empathy but lacks cognitive empathy (theory of mind). But when a BPD’s immediate needs are frustrated, empathy is the first thing that goes out the window. Most importantly, they cannot understand the perspective of others. An inability to integrate diverse experiences, or to see other people as autonomous beings, is paramount to understanding the Borderline mindset. It’s the mindset of trauma, and trauma cannot get outside of itself. For her children, the mother’s attempts to relate may feel superficial or insincere, because BPDs have problems with differentiated relatedness and mentalization. Borderlines can identify the emotions of others, but they have difficulty interpreting them in a non-personal way. BPD solipsism will ultimately override any intrinsic concern for the emotional needs and limitations of others. Because the mother cannot fully understand the intense nature of her own emotions (alexithymia), she is unable to comprehend the emotional experiences of her children. Emotionally speaking, the Borderline mother cannot stand on her own two feet. As a consequence, her children become representational objects who are expected to be supportive of their mother’s unending concerns. She sees her children as a source of tension and irritability, but she also sees her children as an elixir. In a fundamental sense, the children of a Borderline mother are instrumentalized. Minimizing ambiguity reduces fear, so it’s easier for the mother to invalidate her children’s emotional experiences and personal struggles rather than being overwhelmed by their complexity. She is, after all, overwhelmed by her own emotions. The mother’s priority is, paradoxically, to rely on her children for stability, security, reassurance, validation, and emotional comfort. As a result, the children become involuntary enmeshees via psychological fusion with their mother through a process of incremental enmeshment. The children unwittingly fulfill important psychological functions for their mother by becoming her external regulators, attendants, and “redeemers.”
Regrettably, the image of motherhood is more important to BPD mothers than the effective mechanics of parenting. Since most Borderlines were raised in abusive and invalidating environments, they’re unable to give to their children what they themselves did not receive. BPDs typically experienced life in a chaotic household with emotionally negligent, disruptive, or physically abusive parents who also suffered from personality disorders or other forms of mental illness. Subsequently, the survival mechanisms that Borderlines developed to cope with childhood trauma are systematically incorporated into maladaptive ways of thinking and behaving whenever they leave home to establish their own lives. These primitive defense mechanisms may have been useful for protecting a hypersensitive and traumatized child, but they invariably outlive their usefulness in adulthood. Regardless of its immediate survival value, fear conditioning does not bode well for optimizing human flourishing over time. The Borderline’s fight or flight response never turns off because they’re forever fractured by trauma. Ironically, the BPD mother recreates in her own family the very toxic conditions that she tried to escape from when she was a child. The trauma bond that the mother had with her parents is reestablished with her children. Because the most abusive parent maintained power within the family unit, the Borderline mother learned to “covet the bully.” This dysfunctional family system continues because the BPD mother personally identifies with abuse, instability, and impending doom (borderlines are victims of narcissistic abuse who later become purveyors of narcissistic abuse). As Christine Lawson states in Understanding the Borderline Mother, “Chronic psychological degradation of a child, or an adult, can have deadly consequences.” Fear, paranoia, panic, impulsivity, confusion, irritability, anger, and a constant need for reassurance to avoid feelings of abandonment (severe separation anxiety) are the hallmarks of an anxious child who never developed a secure attachment to a reliable caregiver during the first few years of life. The BPD mother is living in a state of eternal recurrence with “the world is against me and it’s your job to recognize my suffering” mentality (aka unrelenting crisis). Consequently, BPD mothers fear the prospect of meaningful change, because change symbolizes the unpredictability of their childhood and reminds them of not being in control. Receiving mixed messages from abusive parents translated into assuming mixed messages from others, thus setting the stage for the mother’s paranoid ideation. There’s a war going on inside of her head and no safe space can be found. BPDs often grew up in a state of emotional deprivation, so they will spend the rest of their lives trying to over-compensate for developmental and attachment deficits. However, their method of compulsive over-compensation causes lifelong relationship problems. To make matters worse, the Borderline mother will subconsciously seek psychological equilibrium at the expense of her children and significant others. Because unresolved trauma keeps the Borderline mother in a state of arrested development, she’s essentially a child trying to raise children of her own. The Authoritarian BPD mother is overprotective to a fault because she is symbolically protecting herself.
From the FOG website: I have been emotionally wounded and crippled by my early life experience, from which I have never healed. The pain and neurotic anxiety drive me to live vicariously through my children. I somehow believe that if I can keep them under my control, the scared little girl that lives within me will at last feel safe and protected. I am putting my emotional needs ahead of my children’s developmental needs, and on some level I know this. I can’t stop because I’m addicted to the soothing feeling of reassurance that having control provides.
Simply put, what happens in childhood does not stay in childhood.
Children of Borderline mothers are also at high risk of developing BPD themselves, or some other personality disorder, due to strong hereditary and multi-generational factors. Others may try to model their mother’s behavior until they realize that it’s abnormal, unsustainable, and profoundly unhealthy. More often, children become collateral damage left in the wake of their mother’s overwhelming desire for control and enmeshment. As the child’s need for healthy exploration is stifled by the mother’s need for control, so is the child’s capacity for developing independence in adolescence and early adulthood. The emotional neglect, drama, and abuse that the mother endured during childhood is unconsciously reenacted in her intimate relationships and approaches to parenting (i.e., poor communication; feelings of victimization; interpersonal conflict; defensive projection; inappropriate anger; emotional reasoning; controlling behaviors; and intense overreactions to perceived slights or threats). Although the BPD mother may feel that she is nothing like her own parents, she has unwittingly internalized faulty perceptions from enduring adverse conditions during childhood. The chaos of the Borderline’s mindset is later projected onto their surroundings, because they see the environment as a canvas to capture and reflect their inner suffering. In other words, “my pain must be painted onto my surroundings to verify that my suffering is not in vain.” Likewise, children of BPD mothers may subconsciously mirror or endorse their mother’s values, beliefs, behaviors, and attitudes through projective counteridentification. By introjecting the mother’s tension-infused, fearful, inflexible, and paranoid worldview, her children will receive validation and support, but they ultimately sacrifice their own sense of identity through the maintenance of such an unhealthy bond. Trauma bonding occurs when a person experiencing abuse develops an unhealthy attachment to their abuser. They may rationalize or defend the abusive actions, feel a sense of loyalty, isolate from others, and hope that the abuser’s behavior will change. Over time, the mother’s children become the equivalent of codependent zombies, anxiously waiting for their next set of instructions (the Norman Bates effect). Disagreement with the values, feelings, and beliefs of a Borderline mother is not an option, and she will invariably get her way in the end.
The following are commonalities in parenting behaviors that typify mothers with Borderline Personality Disorder: (1) they use insensitive forms of communication; (2) are critical and intrusive; (3) use frightening comments and behavioral displays (Hobson et al., 2009); (3) demonstrate role confusion with offspring (Feldman et al., 1995); (4) inappropriately encourage offspring to adopt the parental role (Feldman et al., 1995); (5) put offspring in the role of “friend” or “confidant” (Feldman et al., 1995); (6) report high levels of distress as parents; (Macfie, Fitzpatrick, Rivas, & Cox, 2008); and (7) may turn abusive out of frustration and become despondent (Hobson et al., 2009; Stepp et al., 2012).
Unfortunately, adult children of BPD mothers often succumb to problems with low self-esteem, depression, anxiety, PTSD, compromised identity formation, addiction, age regression, hypervigilance, derealization, depersonalization, obsessive-compulsive behavior, substance abuse, escapism, defensive posturing, rebellion, rumination, sexual repression, confusion, apathy, despair, and suicidal ideation. Children with behavior problems in general are probably reacting to the effects of living with a mentally ill parent. Adult children of BPD mothers are also more susceptible to being involved with high-conflict or dysfunctional relationships through programmed familiarity (operant conditioning through experience with insecure attachments). However, some adult children of BPD mothers resign themselves to permanent isolation because of chronic self-doubt, feelings of unworthiness, hopelessness, or fears of inadequacy. Other traits that may emerge among children of Borderline mothers include excessive rumination, self-criticism, inhibition, apathy, stress-induced health problems, and a negative (pessimistic) attributional style. Worst of all, children of BPD mothers often fail to achieve autonomy, which results in lifelong problems with insecurity and feeling as though they have been “left out” of the adult world. Ultimately, there’s a failure to launch, or a failure to launch correctly. Since the BPD mother has a monopoly on all aspects of interpersonal control, her children may grow up feeling helpless, guilty, or ashamed for trying to assert or express themselves. Because these children have learned to mistrust their own intuitions, they’re usually convinced that the problem must be with them instead of their mother or the family system. Subsequently, the children often end up with the exact same mindset as their mother (i.e., feelings of unworthiness, fear, and insecurity). Daughters of Borderline mothers frequently report feelings of shame, and sons of Borderline mothers report feelings of being emasculated. If the children are lucky enough to escape the impact of family chaos by early adulthood, they may continue to live in a state of vicarious repression and unconsciously deny themselves the freedom of psychological separation. Essentially, the mother’s emotional dysregulation fosters developmental dysregulation in her children. Inconsistencies in parenting are a force multiplier for creating inconsistencies in a child’s ability to acquire self-esteem or manage their own lives as they get older. Sometimes these delays in childhood development are overcome in adulthood through experiential contrast, therapy, healthy relationships, career involvement, or the establishment of adequate spatial and emotional distance from the BPD mother. More often, these children remain in the dark; become disillusioned; continue to suppress their emotions; experience low levels of confidence; embrace futility; resort to self-sabotage; and eventually wonder what in the hell went wrong.
The stress of parenting causes Borderline mothers to disregard healthy discipline that promotes independence and self-respect in favor of various forms of abuse that foster inhibition, confusion, shame, and fear (abuse that was normalized during their own upbringing). However, BPD mothers don’t think of themselves as abusive, because their combative behavior is a side-effect of their disorder (misplaced aggression); besides, it’s all they’ve ever known (ego-syntonic rationalizations for ego-dystonic states). Psychological abuse through emotional neglect, verbal attacks, criticism, or “smothering” and/or physical abuse enacted by draconian methods of punishment are the methods of choice for BPD mothers when raising (controlling) their children. But when her children become adults, the mother’s need for control will likely manifest along more surreptitious delivery systems (e.g., financial control, emotionally compelling ultimatums, “emergencies,” or unreasonable demands for attention and proximity that appear reasonable). In such cases, children may feel intimidated by their mother’s intrusiveness and neediness while simultaneously feeling compelled to acquiesce for the sake of comity. Furthermore, children often question their own sanity as the mother assumes absolute authority concerning the nature of reality. BPD mothers see their children as extensions of themselves, or much needed parts of the self (need-gratifying objects), to stabilize their fragmented sense of identity. Furthermore, BPD mothers will unconsciously rely on their children for purposes of object constancy and emotional regulation, which turns the mother-child relationship into an indispensable support structure for the clinging parent. Love becomes a conditional possession for the BPD mother, but her children are repeatedly subjected to tests and confirmations to prove unconditional love for their mother. Because of the mother’s unrivaled need for control to avoid feelings of abandonment, her children will invariably feel obligated to serve as their mother’s emotional wet nurse, surrogate partner, surrogate parent, best friend, confidant, savior, apologist, negative advocate, or consigliere. However, the enormous pressure placed on any child to fulfill such unsustainable roles will eventually result in a codependent relationship that’s both emotionally exhausting and counterproductive. Subsequently, there will be nothing left when it comes to the children’s emotional needs and personal growth. The underlying message is that independence is a rejection of the mother and, sadly, justification for her to reject the child. Of course, this dilemma places a great amount of stress on her children. Manufactured divisions among siblings may include “the hero child,” “the scapegoat child,” or “the caretaker child.” These narrowly defined roles often become self-fulfilling prophecies in dysfunctional families. Instead of having a broad range of independent qualities, the children become typecast members of a disorganized pedigree with low levels of family cohesion.
BPD mothers employ a combination of fear, obligation, and guilt (FOG) to ensure that their children remain loyal and continually invested in the mother’s inconsolable emotional needs. However, the mother’s desperate search for stability, ironically, results in more instability. Because of the mother’s intolerance of being alone, her children may feel compelled to rescue her from drowning in uncertainty, loneliness, and fear. Borderline mothers are mommies who need mommies; caregivers who need caregivers. In many cases, children provide the mother an opportunity to establish a corrective relationship to compensate for a lifetime of insecure attachments. In fact, this is why a BPD mother often perceives her children’s friends or romantic partners as potential sources of competition who inconveniently take away from her needs for attention, affection, resources, and dominance. The desire to isolate her children from the influence of diverse socialization allows the BPD mother to feel in control of family commitments while avoiding feelings of abandonment. Ironically, the mother may even compete with her own children, or become visibly envious, as if they were rivals that must be subdued and defeated. The mother’s envy can become so virulent that it extends to being envious of other people’s accomplishments, material possessions, happiness, and stability. She will prefer gossip when faced with the challenges of healthy social interaction and her resentment is always lurking in the shadows. Borderline mothers continually compare themselves to others and unknowingly influence their children to doubt themselves by default. If the mother repeatedly compares her children’s upbringing with her own upbringing, this only demonstrates that she has not recovered from childhood trauma. Healthy parents do not compare themselves with their children, but Borderline mothers see life as a competition that they must win at all costs. Subsequently, the children’s need to believe in themselves as autonomous beings is overshadowed by the belief that they’re integral to their mother’s capricious emotional needs. Afraid of her children’s potential for individuation, they do not have permission to thrive without her consent or authorization. Her children are her property, and she is reluctant to share her property. She sees her children’s growth and maturity as a sign of rejection. If something positive happens to the children, it must include the mother, or it must be facilitated by the mother’s oversight and approval (no differentiation without representation). Again and again, the family’s attention returns to the center stage of BPD predominance—held together by the clinging weight of propinquity. The mother’s tendency towards jealousy and suspicion often results in disapproval of her children’s acquaintances or accomplishments to displace her own insecurities and fear of abandonment. Likewise, BPD mothers often triangulate family members by means of splitting, gaslighting, favoritism, scapegoating, gossip, criticism, shaming, and forced allegiances. The mother will frequently alternate between praise (idealization) and criticism (devaluation) of her children. If guilt is habitually weaponized by the mother, it usually manifests by letting her children know how unappreciative they are of the sacrifices that were made for them. However, it’s often the case that many of these “sacrifices” were not requested by the child. More often, these gestures represent a means of manipulating the child’s emotions by making them feel undeserving, inferior, indebted, and shamefully dependent. In response, her children may start feeling like Pavlov’s dog instead of feeling free to roam the yard. A BPD mother may complain about enabling her children, but what she has really been doing is enabling herself to assume martyrdom. Tendentious charity presumes that the provider should be praised and the receiver should be grateful. Instead of promoting sustainable independence and healthy self-esteem, the provider maintains power through resource allocation while the receiver remains disabled. Overindulgence is a bargaining chip to discourage betrayal. According to Tom Bunn, LCSW: “She cannot tolerate feelings of abandonment. She must, no matter what it does to the child, cripple at least one child so that the child will never, even as an adult, be able to leave her. This means destroying at least one child’s ability to function as an independent person. The child must never outgrown the feeling of being a part of the mother.” As Dr. Masterson put it, “There is a belief by each of them that if one dies, the other will die.” The concept of psychological blackmail is now visible, for if a child believes his very existence depends upon his mother’s existence, and is thus responsible for her life, how can he venture far from her? What if she should have a heart attack and he is not there to save her? In summation, the self-sufficiency and self-actualization of the child is supplanted by occasional donations to prolong a cycle of guilt and dependency that has been engineered by the mother because of her own needs. The Cluster B exchange rate inevitably leaves a trail of bemused children who feel ambivalent about their own prospects for acquiring self-efficacy. In families where money and possessions are the currency of love, it’s like putting a fresh coat of paint on a house that’s already been eaten by termites.
A Borderline mother cannot tolerate separation, and her overbearing presence can feel suffocating, intrusive, or “cannibalistic” to her children as they attempt to claim sovereignty in adulthood. The children are unconsciously used as props to stabilize their mother’s unstable emotions while also serving as attendants to soothe her all-encompassing anxiety. A BPD mother clips the wings of her children because her own wings are not stable enough for flying solo in the stratosphere of life’s daily challenges. Nonetheless, providing reassurance and emotional support is randomly rewarded through a process of variant ratio scheduling to keep her children compliant. BPD mothers do not teach their children self-respect; they teach their children to respect the needs of the mother. Likewise, the desperate neediness of the mother is reinforced by the approval-seeking behavior of her children. After all, what child doesn’t yearn for love and approval from their parents? However, children who have surrendered themselves for the sake of parental acceptance (being defined by the Borderline) will invariably become more dependent over time—sacrificing their potential for fulfillment as adults. In addition, the mother’s need for control can undermine her children’s ability to express themselves, feel confident, or take initiative. As a result, the children often feel emotionally paralyzed, defensive, guilty, and helpless while deferring to their mother’s relentless crusade for supremacy (similar to what happens with Stockholm syndrome). In some ways, children of BPD mothers are not allowed to grow up, because growing up represents a threat to the mother’s need for enmeshment. In this sticky situation, the emotional dependency and psychological immaturity of the mother is subconsciously projected onto her children through projective identification. The mother’s fear of abandonment is often so insurmountable that the very idea of her children establishing a life of their own is considered a threat and form of betrayal. Ironically, the mother may later blame her children for their continued dependence while simultaneously disapproving of her children’s efforts to individuate—it’s like trying to escape a mobius strip of irrationality. In other words, the psychological health and independence of her children triggers the mother’s worst fear (abandonment). Incentivizing enmeshment is how the BPD sausage is made.
The mask of normality (false self) is perhaps the most impressive adaptive mechanism of Borderlines—a Trojan Horse for social acceptance. Because the Borderline inhabits a traumatized-dissociative self, she must construct a functional armor through presentation management. As mentioned in The Borderline Koan, BPDs can go “under the radar” for extended periods of time by appearing composed, charming, ambitious, vivacious, generous, and ostensibly reasonable to those who encounter them during brief interactions (aka the halo effect). Dissembling prevents exposure, because exposure means death to the Borderline’s defense mechanisms and fragile ego. Mirroring (mimicking the behavior of others) also keeps the BPD from feeling estranged during anxiety provoking social gatherings. However, the Borderline’s public image (aka “false self”) is usually quite different from their private persona, especially when their precarious mood begins to shift during encounters with frustration. If interpersonal conditions do not remain auspicious, the mother’s impulsive hostility and grandiosity will take over (some BPDs have a ceiling to their episodic rage, while others do not). Being masters of theatrical performance and blame-shifting, Borderline mothers may convince acquaintances that their primary difficulties in life are caused by ungrateful children, lackluster partners, evildoers, and “those damn people” (attribution errors). Parental alienation happens when the mother triangulates the children against her spouse, resulting in more discontinuity among family members. Co-parenting collapses and the children are forced to pick sides without understanding the real source of disharmony. As the art of gaslighting, splitting, triangulation, and projection reaches a fevered pitch, the mother conveniently avoids insight or accountability for her unreasonableness and behavioral inconsistencies. As a reminder, BPDs do not see themselves as disordered (anosognosia) and believe passionately that their thoughts, feelings, and reactions are entirely justified. Being chronically irrational, BPD mothers rely on emotional reasoning rather than logic and confuse their children during communication through selective memory, inattentiveness, anger, or complete denial (there are significant neuroanatomical differences in the BPD brain that also account for these responses). In other words, the mother’s memory is biased towards information that avoids personal blame or feelings of shame (emotional memory blocking). Revisionism is a Borderline trademark, regardless of the historical evidence. Whatever a BPD remembers during periods of conflict will always be someone else’s fault, because their defensive reactivity and hypersensitivity to criticism cannot tolerate the burden of developing insight, apologizing, or accepting accountability. BPD mothers do not have the temperament, maturity, or attention span to engage in emotionally challenging conversations, and they will preemptively shut down topics that might lead to questioning their thoughts or actions. No matter how tempting, children should never broach topics that will trigger their mother’s reactivity (unfortunately, this excludes most substantive conversations). The children’s repeated attempts to JADE (justify, argue, defend, and explain), no matter how articulate or reasonable, never work. The nuances of logic and independent thought are a threat to the emotional biases of the mother. Keeping things light and superficial is the only way to avoid an avalanche of aggressive defense mechanisms. A Borderline’s lack of self-awareness is utterly astounding, but it’s a protective mechanism to avoid deep feelings of insecurity, self-loathing, and shame. Ironically, the BPD’s abundant use of criticism towards others is another way of maintaining fantasies of omnipotence to compensate for feelings of low self-worth. Whatever is wrong, it can’t possibly have anything to do with them (projection). In fact, the denial of the mother can become so tenacious that her family often lives in denial by proxy. However, never letting them see you sweat is the gateway to future regret for families who embrace denialism.
Borderline mothers never learned to trust their environment while growing up because it was always unpredictable. Defensive, suspicious, and paranoid, the mother will interpret innocuous comments as criticisms or insults, evidenced by her paranoid-infused inquiry: What did they mean by that? Unsure of herself, she is unsure of others. The mother may have competed for her parent’s attention with other siblings, or she may have received validation within the family unit based only on her performance. In a home that’s gone haywire, there’s no such thing as self-acceptance, emotional equanimity, or self-love. You either succeed or you suffer. Subsequently, the BPD’s relentless drive for perfectionism in childhood and adolescence results in trying to control anything that offers the promise of stability, safety, and validation in adulthood. This “passion for the perfect” is how high-functioning BPD mothers are capable of accomplishing tasks that provide order, structure, and a solid formula for unambiguous results. Perfectionism is an amulet against feelings of unworthiness, because vulnerability is seen as an imperfection that must be hidden from others. BPD mothers don’t improvise because they’re obsessed with what can be finalized. Do not make any changes in their routine, or you’ll see a mom get mean. Activities need to be formulaic to reduce uncontrollable variables. Never underestimate the mother’s need for certainty and centrality. Inflexibility is another BPD hallmark, and paying attention to superficial details (anxiety induced myopia) is often more important than seeing the bigger picture. Task completion distracts the mother from uncomfortable feelings, boredom, and emptiness, so she must always keep herself busy. Furthermore, situational inconveniences will not be tolerated (efforts to maintain control prevent her from feeling emotionally overwhelmed). Ambiguity is the enemy, and a vehement devotion to gaining the upper-hand is the BPD’s anodyne. This intensity of focus allows the mother to experience the gratification of being in command while providing a means of self-soothing to assuage her anxiety and tension. However, because effective solution implementation takes away from the Borderline’s need to identify with their problems, a continuation of chaos in some realm should be expected (i.e., major life decisions). Catastrophizing is a close second to its first cousin control on the branching tree of BPD modality.
Borderline mothers do not recognize or respect the boundaries of their children. In fact, they don’t understand the definition of boundaries because their childhood home was most likely a boundary free zone. BPDs unconsciously expect others to soak up their suffering, but even sponges have limits. Consequently, BPD mothers will double down on their unreasonableness by resorting to bullying, intimidation, and weaponizing guilt if her children exercise their right to say “no.” BPD mothers can cause their children to feel self-conscious about making their own decisions, or for trying to define territory within the family structure. The desperation and fear of the mother intensifies whenever her children express opposition or demonstrate self-determination. In many cases, the children of a BPD mother will become rebellious and engage in frequent verbal or physical altercations. The children may also find themselves in the habit of lying to their mother just to avoid her wrath, or making excuses to escape being in her presence. When the mother shows insensitivity to her children’s trepidation, gaslighting is the primary tool she uses for leverage against them. In other words, the children are deemed as crazy for questioning the warped logic, anger, and resistance of the mother. Unfortunately, “obedient” children end up feeding their mother’s pathology by acquiescing to her demands and unreasonableness. Besides, no matter what the children do to appease their mother, it’s never enough. This unsavory predicament is described in the following passage by the clinical psychologist Daniel S. Lobel: “Borderline mothers see their children as forever obligated to them by rite of birth. They feel entitled to demand from their children unlimited support and service. The dependency of the Borderline is so great that the child is always seen as coming up short with regard to meeting their needs. This often sets up the mother to be the victim and the child to be vilified.”
The story of a Borderline mother and her children is best explained as a case of misaligned sensitivity. The traumatized mother is hypersensitive to anything that makes her feel emotionally uncomfortable. By contrast, her children become hypersensitive to the emotional discomfort and labile moods of the mother (i.e., walking on eggshells). When the mother insists that her children must care exclusively about her emotional needs and most urgent fears, the children become overly responsive to their mother’s illness and never develop the ability to properly take care of themselves. The pattern of identifying their mother’s hypersensitive reactions, and responding with immediate attempts at remediation (codependence), subsequently bleeds into every situation and relationship that the children encounter for the rest of their lives, or until the spell is finally broken. As night follows day, the children are eventually converted into anxiety-ridden radar detectors without a rudder, just like their mother.
Many years later, adult children of BPD mothers may experience shock, incredulity, outrage, bewilderment, and resentment when they finally learn about the psychological anatomy of Borderline Personality Disorder. There’s also a compelling inclination among adult children of BPD mothers to relapse into previous patterns of dysfunctional family interactions and denial after the game has finally been revealed. Being dragged back into the drama is just another example of how powerful FOG can be. Rationalizing the irrational is to be expected, especially when the majority of a person’s life has been spent attending to the shifting needs of an emotionally unstable parent. Making elaborate excuses for one’s mother is natural, but at some point there will be no excuse left for not seeing things as they really are. Denial subsidizes sickness. Acceptance requires understanding, and understanding is the only way that forgiveness can have meaning. We must first understand our parents before we can understand ourselves. A common statement made by adult children after educating themselves about this baffling disorder is: “I always knew that there was something wrong with my mother, but I just couldn’t put my finger on it.” Connecting the dots becomes easier with emotional distance and enough time. Unfortunately, those raised in dysfunctional families will sometimes spend their entire adulthood trying to rework their childhood (vicarious traumatization and psychological enmeshment are exceptionally difficult dynamics to overcome). Upton Sinclair once said, “It’s nearly impossible to get a man to understand something when his paycheck depends on him not understanding it.” To paraphrase Mr. Sinclair: It’s nearly impossible to get an adult to understand the influence of childhood trauma when their survival depends on them not understanding it.
When the adult children of a Borderline mother finally come to terms with what happened during their formative years, a crushing sadness and loss will prevail—sadness for the mother they never had; sadness for their mother; sadness for their own suffering; and a feeling of loss for the years that were wasted. However, the stages of change that occur during any grieving process are necessary so that more favorable changes can eventually emerge. That being said, the bargaining stage of grief is probably the most difficult to overcome. Deprogramming requires not only divorcing oneself from the trauma bond, but separating from the version of yourself that was vulnerable to it. Cognitive dissonance is resolved by maintaining psychological distance after giving up all illusions of normal reconciliation. The only way for children to avoid feeling disabled by their mother’s need for control is to find creative ways in adulthood to disable the drama (i.e., avoiding intense emotional engagement; learning to observe rather than absorb; building a support system outside of the family; studying the disorder; creating boundaries; self-improvement; and seeking therapy). On a more positive note, adult children of a BPD mother may experience a deeper sense of compassion that’s based on understanding their mother’s disorder rather than relying on superficial interactions under the guise of love. As eloquently stated by Dr. Tara J. Palmatier, “Sacrificing yourself at the altar of someone else’s pathology is not a measure of your love for them, it’s a measure of your willingness to be abused by them.” Most importantly, children must accept the fact that their mother may never have the capacity to understand the negative impact she’s had, or is having, on her family. No mother is perfect, but BPD mothers wish that they and their families were perfectible based on impossible standards that were set in motion by their own parents. Unfortunately, the problems that perfectionism creates (e.g., disillusionment, insecurity, shame, anxiety, paralysis, and relentless self-criticism) are far more damaging than the problems that perfectionism pretends to solve. Reverse engineering the psychological damage done by interacting with a BPD mother is an arduous and time-consuming process, but it should not be postponed for the sake of maintaining appearances. Potential is lost forever if we deny ourselves permission to reach our potential. Children need stability, confidence, and a strong sense of self-reliance to develop independence in adulthood; otherwise, they’ll blindly perpetuate the mindset of their mother without having the tenacity to land on their own feet.
As the Borderline mother ages, her intensity may diminish when she finally loses steam and relegates herself to a life of resentful dissatisfaction (the most extreme symptoms of BPD often relinquish over time). With any luck, she may find another audience to take the place of her children. The reigns of control will slowly unwind as the mother begrudgingly settles for disappointment in lieu of her strained efforts to sculpt the family according to her iron will. For other BPD mothers, their insatiable need for control will decidedly follow them to their graves, but hopefully before the family is forced to dig their own. Life is too short for marinating in a multi-generational melting pot of maladaptive misery.
As with all Borderline relationships, there are only three options for adult children to consider: Avoid, challenge, or appease. Most of the time, the children of BPD mothers will find themselves reluctantly pedaling between all three positions, or avoiding contact altogether. It’s not that BPD mothers don’t love their children, it’s that they don’t understand the meaning of mature love any more than they understand the meaning of what’s required for healthy relationships. Love is conflated with psychological and behavioral control to attenuate the mother’s fear of abandonment. The mother needs someone to love her, but love is insufficient because she has not addressed her own trauma. Jealousy, need, control, and desperation are the antithesis of love; they’re manifestations of fear. The Borderline Mother was not loved, or not loved consistently by her parents, so she is lost and continually searching for what she does not understand. Perhaps it’s most accurate to say that the BPD mother loves what her children represent (emotional security). She creates her own version of love and decrees by fiat that it’s the correct version. However, it’s a mutation of love born from the origins of a dysfunctional childhood. The mother must learn to face, accept, and resolve her core wounds, and her children must recover separately. Until that day arrives, BPD mothers will never understand or effectively love their children, because they were never able to understand or love themselves. In such families, regression is rewarded and independence is frowned upon. Nevertheless, Borderline mothers can be inspirational, affectionate, talented, intelligent, and benevolent. BPD mothers are human beings, and informed observations about the effects of childhood trauma and mental illness are not meant to be merciless accusations. The task for adult children is to process this information with dispassionate honesty rather than capitulating to self-indulgent parent bashing. Animosity towards an affliction is not the same as animosity towards the afflicted. Borderline Personality is a disorder and not a choice. However, it’s expected that the family will be playing by the mother’s capricious rules and allowing her to take full control of the court. Borderline mothers are not casual cooperators, because they insist on holding all of the cards that were unavailable to them in childhood. However, it must be understood that the mother needs her children more than they need her, but she has convinced them otherwise. Adult children must learn to trust their own intuitions rather than acquiescing to the impulsive instincts of a disordered parent. If they don’t, they’ll eventually abandon themselves.
Borderline mothers are suffering from a disorder that’s built upon a shattered bedrock of identity diffusion, attachment deficits, emotional extremes, anxiety, insecurity, fear, and a profound lack of insight. Without self-awareness, how could they possibly begin to understand what’s required to optimize the well-being of their children? However, the legacy of trauma should not be perpetuated in the minds and lives of a mother’s children. There are some obligations that should never be fulfilled.
For more information:
Resource and recovery site for family members of personality disordered individuals: https://outofthefog.website/